A general ask/support thread for people living with schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder

It happens! I'm currently open to the idea of there being...well, literally anything beyond what I'm currently diagnosed w, but I've definitely thought that I might have different disorders at various points. And more recently, I've struggled telling the difference between ADHD and possible autism signs. Brains are messy and weird--I don't think misdiagnosis or misinterpretation of symptoms occurs for no reason.

 

TBH they appear to be somewhat related it seems?

 

I'm having a rough week. I feel like I'm on the verge of 'snapping' if I havent already? When I'm not talking aloud, or online, my thoughts in my head are so jumped up and I can't seem to make sense or anything. For example, I sat here and thought "My dad did this. In his caddilac (he doesn't own a caddilac). IT's sad that the cats are sad. But the cats aren't sad I'm projecting. Maybe they are. Watching movies. Out of all the bars she could've walked into she had to walk into mine."

that as best as I can describe my inner thought processes. Trying to talk/manage these thoughts into coherency is draining all the spoons I have. I doubt I'll shower today, but showering before heading out sounds super nice. I just don't have shampoo. My hair is greasy.

I'm worried this is it. This is when I finally lose my mind for real and get hospitalized for months on end instead of just a couple of days or even just a couple of weeks. I don't know how fast these pills will kick in. A part of me just wants to write and write and write everything going on in my head and at the end of it, try to publish it somewhere and then off myself and be rid of this rollercoaster ride.

 

Witnessed.

 

*e-hugs if you want them* also witnessed.

 

Thanks for the witnessing. I don't know what to do. I've taken my medicine daily for over a year now. I'm taking the PRN as needed. I don't know what's wrong with me.

 

might be just A Very Bad Day. also today is a Holiday which tends to be Rambunctious and Loud.

hang in there.