every time i make one of these threads i end up abandoning it. i will try not to do that with this one. so: quick life updates i am a black butler fan first and a human second. i loved it in high school and then had my insane multi year fit where i flailed wildly at everything and everyone and now i am better and realize that yeah actually the premise is good and kind of fucks severely. that season 4 announcement came right after i told my partner i'd get a black butler tattoo if they announced anything this year-- i'm playing with ideas because ciel is my little scrungly. i had a multi year obssession with genshin that has now been replaced by honkai star rail and also black butler and trigun. i still have some blorbos but my fuck they do not care about player retention. i am so tired i tried antidepressants-- not for me. my heart issues and anxieties around taking daily medication can't quite be solved by having meds i don't take. the depression is there, but livable. the anxiety that permeates everything in my life and makes me ghost jobs if i think i'll be in the slightest bit of trouble, however, so i have situational anxiety meds now. i haven't had to take them, but having them near is helpful. i am trying so hard to start testosterone but it's difficult given the aforementioned heart problems. my cardiologist is being very cautious, which i appreciate, but unfortunately i am not a patient person and want to go through puberty 2 blease. i got really into roleplaying bloodhound apex legends as a wolf on multiple warrior cats spinoff sites and that was fun and sillay remember the joke. about me being ramona flowers with all her evil exes? yeah that happened again. i have another boyfriend now, we've been together since november 2021. i've known him for. a very long time. 6-7 years? back during the ray days. i know i say this every time, but i think he's the one.