Hi! This is my baby's first thread and I'm a little nervous. Some basic background: I'm a 19 year old female college student, and I've had issues with depression, anxiety and general emotional regulation since at least middle school. High school was rough, but college is where a lot of shit really hit the fan. I spent a good chunk of the last semester wanting to die, and a good chunk of this summer thinking I would die. I almost took a semester off, but I don't have the funds to live somewhere else and I can't stay with my family (rocky relationship with my mom, and I don't like living with her boyfriend. I also really don't like the town we live in). I'm trying to start antidepressants, but so far I've only gotten through two weeks of Lexapro before I quit. It made me sleepy and hungry, and fatigue and disordered eating are already problems I have! I was really worried about gaining weight. It was nice to get a break from my anxiety and depression, but I started finding it difficult to relate to or care about the people around me, to a greater degree than when I'm depressed. So, if people could give me some of their experiences with specific antidepressants, that would be great! I know that not everyone reacts the same, but I'd like to hear anyway. I plan on trying Wellbutrin next, and maybe a Wellbutrin/Lexapro combo if it spikes my anxiety. I went without meds for a really long time, but my mental unhealth has started affecting how I treat people around me, and that's unacceptable. I'd also like to point out that I have the luxury of moderate depression and anxiety. It makes my life difficult and I'm prone to suicidal ideation, but I'm not likely to off myself in the near future, and I'm not too scared of going off meds if they don't work for me.