If I were to ask people what they think of me, I think they would probably say that I'm sort of just...there; the group is neither better nor worse off when I arrive
(usual disclaimer that I haven't been diagnosed with anything due to my age, but I suspect I have BPD because of my disposition towards mental illness + lots of symptoms of BPD)
The only thing I'm consistently described as is 'weird', which, well, given the ADHD+autism+szpd triangle of wtf I seem to have, does make sense, but the issue then becomes how to quantify 'weird', haha. I don't particularly feel 'weird' - how would you feel 'weird', anyway? All I really feel is an increasingly wide gap opening up between myself and everybody else - or perhaps the gap was already there, and I'm just now figuring out how wide it is.
