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I would cosign that, because I accidentally did that with psych meds, and now I can't stop dissociating. :P

 

I hadn't really ever thought about it before! I definitely do have times when I have too much sensation of being in my body (hello dysphoria thanks), and the way I deal with that is mostly by I guess meditating? It's like when you're just about to fall asleep, just kind of withdrawing from your brain. Before that I would purposely dissociate by throwing myself into books and being those characters instead, though I didn't know that's what it was at the time. I can get so into basically anything crafty (reading, writing, drawing, making friendship bracelets, etc) that I completely lose track of time and forget where I am, and I think that counts as dissociation with how unreal it feels to have to go back to noticing the world.

 

(slightly tangential anecdata: i have experienced drug-induced dissociation, but not when i actually took a dissociative drug; that did basically nothing. meanwhile THC is a powerful dissociative for me)

 

(I think it depends on the dosage. Take enough of an nmda antagonist and you'll quite literally forget who you are. Take even more and you'll also forget that you are human, that the colourful shapes that you can vaguely make out in front of you are meant to be objects, that you exist in a physical universe and there has ever been anything other than the eternity of instantaneous experience you find yourself in.

Then you come to a little and throw up a lot.)

 

chaotic screeching
I forgot to tell my alters in the note that my iTunes and Amazon are off-limits and one of them purchased things on iTunes
I have no money
help

 

Whoa, not good. Yes, I think if your alters are going to be around then making sure that there are very very firm boundaries is going to be the most important thing... otherwise somebody's going to end up fucking things over for all of you to various degrees at some times :V

 

Yeah. See also the thing with Neon and your Minecraft house.

 

Mmm, yeah. Having alters is one thing but if they're actively trying to sabotage you in some ways then that's not a good thing! A Minecraft house is one thing, but actual finances are important

 

I have tried to set boundaries but it seems like every single thing I forget to mention is something one of them accidentally does TT.TT I'm guessing the person who bought things was Neon, seeing as...every single piece of music seems like something she would like, and she probably didn't mean any harm because Neon never does, but she just doesn't think and...well. now this. I doubt she meant to actively sabotage me or anything, although she does enjoy fucking around with stuff, if I'd explained to her that touching the finances is a serious problem and could get us kicked out I'm sure she wouldn't have done this, I just....forgot to mention it. I assumed that they would be like me and think about what they were doing, but...that clearly has not worked. now I am in debt about....oh, let me think...34 dollars. which may not seem like much but that's 34 dollars I don't have. and I don't have the luxury of spending money willy-nilly on whatever I want, I'm trying to save for things and pay for stuff. this is....not good and I am Stressing.

 

... I'll be honest, I was pretty sure it was Neon as soon as I read your post.

 

she.....does have a tendency to do things like that. I wanted to check what kind of music it was and when it was purchased before I accused her, but...yeah, it kinda had to be Neon.
she's also eaten a bunch of muffins after my parents told her not to eat the muffins, burned down someone else's Minecraft house, bought a Minecraft realm, and made an impulse buy while grocery shopping that consisted of a bunch of candy, which led to me deciding that if she's ever fronting and gets asked to go grocery shopping, someone needs to kick her out of front asap. we don't have money to be spending like that.
she is the impulsive alter, apparently.

 

Maybe Neon needs to not front without supervision?

 

.....this is probably a good idea, yeah. kind of like how the little kids aren't allowed to front without supervision either.

 

in other frustrating things tonight:
friend: "well there's really no set way to be a system, I don't think"
yes. there is. it's called having DID or OSDD.

 

Taken kindly, they could just be implying that the precise manifestation of DID differs depending on the individual in que-...

Nah, nope, they were probably trying to pull this "natural system" crud weren't they. My sympathies.

 

they were trying to convince me they think they're forming a system. I am not standing for this bullshit.

 

*rolls eyes on your behalf*

 

thank
it...is really fucking ridiculous, though, because I've explained to them everything about DID and my system because they were insanely curious.
....and now they're pretty much trying to copy me, but they're doing a very poor job of it.

 

Popping in: I just read the whole thread and it's blowing my fucking mind. I feel like I understand human consciousness better now. Just. Holy shit. Alters are people.