Back on my bullshit

Discussion in 'Your Bijou Blogette' started by Loq, Dec 16, 2018.

  1. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    rotates mara at speed

    One step in and I'm three drinks deep
    Watering that big secret I keep
    If nobody knows (knows)
    The bigger it grows (grows)

    And no-one knows the difference 'tween my laughter and my screams
    When everyone around me's twenty shots under the sea
    And I can't tell if I'm drowning or floating
    So I just keep on going (going)

    I can't wait, I can't wait
    To lose all my friends in one night!
    I can't wait, I can't wait
    To ruin the rest of my life!
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  2. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    gently folds country into Acanthus' list, baffling the algorithm one genre at a time

    Can’t get revenge and keep a spotless reputation
    Sometimes revenge is a choice you gotta make
    My mama came from a softer generation
    Where you get a grip and bite your lip just to save a little face

    Go and fix your make-up, girl
    It’s just a break up, run and
    Hide your crazy and start actin’ like a lady
    'Cause I raised you better
    Gotta keep it together
    Even when you fall apart
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  3. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    bored and collecting the beat lyrics of all the unhinged shit in Acanthus' playlist
    It's hard to be charming and smart and disarming, it's hard to pretend you're the best
    It's hard to fulfill everyone's expectations, it's hard to keep up with the rest
    But I'm gonna win
    I'm gonna try
    I'll never lose
    I'll never die
    You've seen me before
    You'll see me again
    I'll never give up
    I'll never give in
    'Til I'm bloody and bruised
    'Til I've broken my bones
    'Til I won't be abused
    'Til I'm laughing alone

    Look at history, open the books
    There are statues with great looks
    There are gods, there are kings
    I'm pretty sure I'm the same thing
    Beyond boundaries, beyond rules

    I wanna make decisions, want you to believe
    I wanna be a hero for the man in need
    I want to be a gentleman, I want to be free
    So if you wanna live forever, come with me!

    It doesn't take a killer to murder
    It only takes a reason to kill
    We've all got evidence of innocence
    It's 'everything's coincidence'
    The difference 'twixt fate and free will
    Is whether you're singing 'ooooh, could you take a look at me?
    Am I bad, am I bad, am I bad, am I really that bad?'
    Oooh, whatever you think of me
    If you were in my shoes
    You'd walk the same damn miles I do!

    I'm not a criminal
    I'm not the villain
    Yeah, this is personal
    A drive-by killing
    Your guns are loaded
    And your lies are the bullets
    So here is the trigger
    Go ahead and pull it, now
    Are you sure you wanna play this game?
    Are you sure you wanna play it?
    The only thing worse than a hater
    The only thing worse than a hater
    Is a traitor, a traitor, a traitor

    A beast in the business of selling forgiveness
    Dead eyes on a treacherous grin
    Yet he laps up the vice like a wolf in the night
    He's the left hand of God on the stage
    And I'll give you a show, it helps fill the seats
    So give me your sins, give me your lies
    But whisper your love, and I'll whisper mine

    I got some bad addiction, baby
    It's you, yeah, yeah, that's right
    And I feel you takin' over me
    Could love be a lady in here tonight?
    My odds are stacked
    I've never been a gambling man
    I've never had the winning hand
    But for you I'd lose it all

    The carnival's marked, the games are all rigged
    The banker, the broker, the mayor, the pigs
    It's not so much a town as a broken merry-go-round
    She keeps on twisting, drilling herself into the ground
    We're all on the ride, and we're running out of time
    But I'm stopping it here, it's the end of my line

    (love you kirkwall <3)

    Stopping's not an option
    When your goals are anything like mine
    You've put up a fight
    Tearing at the inseam
    Watching everything falling apart
    Won't keep me from my dream
    Nobody stands a chance here in my way
    Is it so wrong to be selfish for a change?

    Beware, beware, be skeptical
    Of their smiles, their smiles of plated gold
    Deceit so natural
    But a wolf in sheep's clothing
    Is more than a warning
    Baa baa, black sheep, have you any soul?
    No sir, by the way, what the hell are morals?

    You say you wanna tear right through me
    I welcome you to try
    (Kiss me, kiss me)

    I wanna see your teeth, girl, lemme see you grind

    I'm tellin' you
    You bit off more than you can chew
    And I am every bit as bad as you've heard
    I will call your bluff and turn up the cards
    Your pretty face ain't enough to burden my heart
    Devil help you girl 'cause soon you're gonna see
    You shouldn't mess with a demon like me

    If I taste you will we know
    If love kills or makes you whole?
    Tears you open, takes you home
    You have the thing I love
    But the fear in me is way too much
    If I open wide
    One of us may get lost inside

    My love is the killing kind
    Nevermore to leave here, nevermore to leave here
    Try and try to let you go
    And I'll just disappear
    Go down below
    Where children go

    And we all float down here
    Singin' 'I know, I know, I know, I know
    I know my love can be-'

    I've been waiting for this moment
    For such a long time
    And wouldn't you know it
    You're finally mine
    If you're hurting
    Please show it
    Don't be afraid to cry
    And just for my enjoyment you will suffer
    I'm a master of torture
    It gets me high
    To show you the horror
    Of staying alive

    Never did care for waiting
    I better like compensating
    And Mama just taught me one thing:
    Sewing stitches just like a madame
    Living is overwhelming
    Dying might just be one thing
    And Papa just taught me one thing:
    Take things into your own hands

    It takes Paul Own five minutes to die
    Another thirty to stop bleeding
    I know, because I time it.

    I never knew how patient I could be
    Until I watched you bleed
    There's nothing I can take from you
    That means what she did to me
    Every word from your fucking mouth
    Is like bringing wood to a burning house
    And we'll be here all night 'til ashes are all we breathe
    So I'll take a drop for every hour she'll never dance
    I'll hide a piece in every city she'll never see
    I know that this won't bring her back
    And I'll never find relief
    So the last drop
    Oh, the last drop
    The last drop is for me!

    They'll go crazy when I've made it
    And what does 'made it' even mean?
    All hail!
    I'll never be your king
    I'll never be your king
    I'll never be your[...]
    Why would you even build a pedestal or beautiful throne
    If it's not your own?
  4. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    rotating this blast from the past for some reason, even though DT is well and truly dead

    more specifically, contemplating how fucking bizarre it would seem to a ship full of mostly-verbal people to have what 'should' be a screaming fight across a huge chunk of the ship in just. utter silence. soundtrack of combat noises while they telepathically shriek at each other and No One Else. no context, only wanton destruction, and immensely likely to derail if interrupted with the both of them turning (violently :')) on an external 'threat', ie security showing up like "stop wrecking the ship we are In Space"
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  5. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    I don't wanna write the fic I want to see in the world, I want it to already be written so I can read it as a bedtime story :(
    there is a criminal lack of Elliott Getting Pegged on AO3
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  6. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    "oh right, that's the skull" and other things to say while packing
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  7. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    mara's playlist has two vibes and it's [hedonistic party rock] + [trauma]
    One step in and I'm three drinks deep / watering that big secret I keep / If nobody knows (knows) / the bigger it grows (grows) / and no one knows the difference 'tween my laughter and my screams

    I've been in chains since I was / nothing but a kid / We don't know freedom / Not quite sure that we ever did / Now that we have it / how will we make use of it?

    These aren't my people, these aren't my friends / That's when she grabbed my face and said / I like that you're broken, broken like me / Maybe that makes me a fool

    Drink, I've had too much to think / Just tell me now, babe / is this seat taken now? / What's this? The consequences of my actions?

    She said she's been inside too long / (No shit, could you tell us something new?) / You can tell he's lying 'cause his lips move


    It's just the way that I am, I'm a mess and it's literal / Got a hole in my heart, gonna fill it with chemicals / So I drove to my cousin's, I was feelin' like shit/ 'Til I walked through the door and then my energy flipped / Another day in paradise, I'm high with my friends / It's what I did last night, I think I'll do it again

    We gotta turn up the crazy / Livin' like a washed-up celebrity / shootin' fireworks like it's Fourth Of July / until we feel alright


    I did not paint a face on a sleepin' guard / Well, convention sleeps when the sun goes down / So copper, try and catch me now! / Didn't I paint a face on a sleepin' guard?
    Crown me the merry lord of misrule / with my cracked mask, late hangover, and a ragged suit / Well, curbside, I crept from sleep / Some stranger left behind his reeds / Crown me the merry lord of this road

    Blame the bar for the band / Blame the band for the song / Blame the song for the party that went all night long / But it ain't my fault! / Might'a had a little fun, lotta wrong I've done / but it ain't my fault!

    Fire up that fiddle, boy, and give me one last drink / When the sun comes up, I will leave without a fight / But the world is mine tonight

    I'm filthy as charged, filthy as charged!
    You can't take me anywhere, anywhere / I'm still uninvited, I'm still gonna light it / I'm going insane and I don't care / But whatever they tell you / Dancing's not a crime / 'less you do it without me!
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  8. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    help I'm being specifically targeted by books again
    I am a simple enby, I see a Creature with terrifying world-ending powers caring about One Person because They Cared About Them, that's my favorite character

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  9. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    stick bug is to rick roll as skill issue is to git gud
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  10. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    I've mostly been containing my playlist feels to. well. The Playlist, but

    Immense Mara Energy

    I know you've got scars of your own
    But hide my knives before you go
    I'll either live or die alone

    I(IIIII) swear
    I will die trying
    I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress
    I promise I honestly want to prove improvement's possible
    I(IIIII) swear
    I'm so fucking sorry!
    I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all
    But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all

    And write a FUCKING song about it because it all has to be about Will's FUCKING trauma! GODdammit!
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  11. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    god. coming back knowing Chronic Pain Ashton Canon, blue imogen discussion slaps even harder

    "You could just... go back to bed and hope it gets better in the morning. It never does, but, yknow."
    "I mean, it's not like that could make it worse?"
    "Eh... no, it could get worse. But it'll be worse and you'll have slept, so."
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  12. Loq

    Loq rotating like a rotisserie chicknen

    spotify keeps trying to cram songs from my villain list into maranai's playlist, so now I'm trying to contemplate how he even would be twisted to a villain au
    it would be extremely easy to tweak him more burned out, more selfish, more callous, but even on a pure revenge bender he'd still be targeted- a small handful of people could earn his fury, depending on circumstances, but he's not likely to be cruel for cruelty's sake or really even consider himself powerful enough to affect more than a tiny little corner of the world. even spun sideways into "no one will ever have power over me again," he's more like to hie off into solitude than try to make himself someone else's problem; far, far too deep into the flight end of fight-or-flight responses.
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