bandit king of lunch and string

sometimes things really are just very simple. i'm going to get a manual wheelchair and use it to play pokemon go. i am simply choosing to stop worrying about things like "what about when people see that i can walk, are they going to be jerks, maybe behind my back instead of letting me explain" and "what if this next procedure/exercise/whatever makes it so i can walk freely and we've wasted the money" -- the latter of which sounds even dumber when i write it down, frankly. anyhow, we have a little money to spare, manual ones aren't very expensive, and i want to hit the pokestops, and that's all there is to it. i don't have to figure out winter or whatever.

honestly, i didn't have noticeable anxiety before i decided to start acting like a grownup. i had many other headbees, but not that one. and it's not like fussing about it even succeeds in stopping me from wasting resources and time. it just makes me waste my spoons as well. i should just knock it off.

 

hermes has gotten much less scared of thunder. he still likes to be near me when it's thundery, but he used to practically climb into my shirt, and now he's fine with curling on the bed while i sit in my computer chair. brave little lad!

 

hermes is Safe

 

just had my consultation with the surgeon. he said i could go on like i have been, and control this problem with pain meds and rest when it pops up, or i could have surgery, which would stop it completely. the surgery involves removing grody corroded and barnacled bone, and fixing the vertebra in question to the one above it with a titanium pin.

i'm terrified, but i already know i'm probably going to do it.

 

what an elegant floof!

 

Old Guy Life Advice:

put chocolate chips in your breakfast granola. life's too short.

 

i am eating peanut butter granola with nilla yogurt and teeny teeny chippos as we speak, my friend, it is divine

 

https://www.bearnaked.com/en_US/home.html

luka got it for me bc it had a bear on it and it became my fave brand

edit: oh but this particular peanut butter granola doesn't have chocolate in it, barb gave me a bag of mini chips and i've been adding a spoonful to my breakfast bowl in order to make my day better

 

when there are too many fruits mixed together in a smoothie, it starts to taste garbagey to me. :(

 

for my own reference



i can custom color it orange to match my cane <3

feel so much better about wheels if it feels like sports eq rather than medical eq

 

we ordered it! custom orange with nubby tires! now i just wait 2 weeks... *fidgets*

 

why do i suddenly feel lonely and sad? everything's really really good right now. annoying brain glitch. :(