Seeing other people draw the exact same scenes/prompts/situations/what-have-you and get 10k+ notes when I am lucky to crack double digits on a good day. Like I get that it's my own damn fault because my designs aren't popular or whatever because people hate variety but also it feels like screaming into a void, except the screams are things that took several days of my life to create. The flip side though is that if someone says even one (1) nice thing I will literally weep with joy so I guess that's a thing.
Also a meta-gripe: when I bitch about the above situation, I'm always met with "but do you enjoy making it, because that's all that matters uwu" and hell yes I enjoy making it but also let me vent please and thank you.
Spoiler: porn rants I thought I could write short smut and sell it on Kindle but apparently according to various people who do, literally everything that sells is one of my biggest squicks and the writing they want there is the exact opposite of what I've always been told is good writing. WHY IS THIS EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE APPEALING. HOW IS ANYONE SUPPOSED TO BE ATTRACTED TO A CHARACTER WHEN YOU SPECIFICALLY TOLD ME NOT TO GIVE HIM ANY PERSONALITY OR CONCRETE PHYSICAL TRAITS IN CASE THOSE TRAITS PUT SOMEONE OFF, THEREFORE THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT HIM TO BE ATTRACTED TO? WHAT IS ANYONE EVEN GETTING OUT OF THIS THAT THEY COULDN'T GET FOR FREE ELSEWHERE, OR INDEED IN THE WORST CASES BY SLAPPING TWO CUTOUT PAPER DOLLS TOGETHER?
When you're writing consistently for once and feeling fucking guilty for not DRAWING so you DRAW and then you feel guilty for not WRITING and then you get stuck for ages and cry with glee when you can get ANYTHING done at all. brain, pls, come the fuck on, lemme do this scene so i can have a finished thing to put out 8IIIIII
I have like two days to finish this fucking fic so I can actually release it as part of Femslash February and THE STRESS IS KILLING ME. ;-;
This is doubly frustrating when it's messy, unfinished pieces that get super popular while my obsessive ass is over here zoomed in 800% correcting every single pixel. That's not to say loose drawing styles aren't valid or don't have their place in the art world but like, come on.
Tfw you're so exhausted after work every day that you never get any art done and you feel crummy and bottled up.
White fabric and me are Not Meant To Be. I thought I'd gotten responsible enough to keep a handle on myself, and I've been CAREFUL and also I've only had this project going for a day and a half... and there's a little spot on the uncovered part of the white canvas. Not project-ruining, but. Why this. Anyways, time to plot out the Rewind message projects to happen on not white fabric ಥ_ಥ
I don't know why but I Cannot work on my comic. I have two pages storyboarded and usually once it's storyboarded, the rest just kind of pours out of me, but I've had these open in SAI for days. It doesn't help that I have to draw a bunch of NPCs for this scene and that's my least favorite. it also doesn't help I keep getting distracted by stupid sexy elves
how do people just up and write something? ive got all those story ideas, but as soon as i start taking notes it's all - "you don't know enough about the fictional setting you write in and thus are forbidden fom writing anything, like, ever." i just wanna make a few silly stories plz
I was going to write spitefic of the shitty fucking 3DS port of my special-interest favorite game, but then I found out they managed to butcher not just most of the major themes of the story, but the entire ending, and now none of my spitefic ideas feel nearly spiteful enough. ...And also now I feel like in every single thing I write forever after this, I'm going to have to go out of my way to make sure I mention something that isn't compliant with the 3DS ending, just because it's such a betrayal of every single thing this story means to me.
the dawning realisation that you have no idea how the character you're drawing is actually supposed to look
writing down the summary/background info of a comic you'd planned for years and realize that everthing is even more disjointed than you thought and none of it sounds particularly good: HELL! HELL! HELL!!
Refusing to reblog because OP is "too popular" of an artist? Could anybody possibly be that petty?? Stay tuned to find out! (it's me)
I keep bouncing from project to project and doing nothing with them because I'm bouncing and aaaaaaa. AAAAAAAAA. AAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
