Witnessed and also same hat. Also, there are a limited number of hours in the day? And I need to like... eat, work, and sleep? What kind of sjw bullshit is this????
I feel like I have been improving in some areas which is great but, not linework. Its either too chunky and boring or wobbly. When I try to do lineweight stuff it's so subtle it's unnoticeable or again chunky and gross. Aggh
chapter before this one: "we have a week, and then we'll meet up and discuss escape plan " latest chapter: "so we met up the next day and are kind of mutually pushing for the week actually being the deadline to leave despite it not being said (bc author flubbed for some godawful reason and the entire chapter is angled that way) me, writing now for next chapter: :explaining the difference in like a paragraph and then going and editing a paragraph into the chapter while glancing side to side anxiously and sweating, waiting for the SWAT team to arrive and take back my writer's card:
Ended up looking through some decade old art today. The way I draw faces really hasn't changed much. The rest of my anatomy has at least improved.
there was one time where i wrote a story and it was well recieved and then I wanted to write a follow up that was 7x as long and tonally different and entirely too serious and had shit like "priest quits the parish and then lives in a transition apartment that's paid for by another former priest, which is a thing that exists for some reason don't worry about it" and "main character suddenly develops counting ocd to replace ritualistic prayer and recitation" long story short I'm getting really into and excited about a longer and more complicated story again, and very worried I'm diving into my navel and making another weird, uncomfortable steaming turd
I learned that getting reblogged by BNFs isn't the way to get "discovered" after all, so there's a thing to cross off the list I guess....? Part of me just wants like.... one person who consistently tells me my designs are the best. Like they don't even have to be popular themselves or w/e. Just one person.
why is it that I can write unabashedly-cruel characters completely fine but when it comes to writing nice characters all bitchy and mean I have so much trouble actually writing them being mean and terrible instead of soft...it annoys me so much argh. softness isn't as fun if the characters aren't struggling to be kind instead of cruel!! suspecting it's a problem of not writing enough scenarios that accommodate the kind-at-heart characters being mean bitches, or just an overall problem of balancing hard facade vs soft inside...or it's the third option where I'm constantly writing h/c or trauma/communication breakdown stuff and overcompensating niceness to try and avoid Certain Pitfalls with making the characters too cruel/invasive/ignorant or w/e like I keep seeing in poorly-written fic. maybe all three at once actually? none of them really occur when writing the characters who love to make others suffer after all... obviously this means I need to try actually practicing these things more!!! but then ugh, so little time in the day and so little spoons+focus, esp with work on now...this kills the writer
I don't have any yellow ochre. I have every other colour imaginable, but yellow ochre is the one that I need to finish this comission that's already several months late.
tfw you can tell something about your painting is off but not quite What so it just remains an unfixable [suspicious squint] edit: and then figuring it out at two in the goddamn morning, because what are brains, why couldn't we realise this when we were actually working on the thing
me: [has a rich and varied cast of ocs to write about] me: [writes only about the same like three characters every fic I start] may have potentially bitten off more than I can chew here...
I'D LIKE TO FILE A FORMAL COMPLAINT AGAINST HAVING TO PUT COLOR SCHEMES TOGETHER AND COLOR THEORY IN GENERAL FOR BEING SO IDIOTICALLY UNINTUITIVE
When canon gives you some Juicy Shit to incorporate into your fanfic and yet you still have fucking writer’s block.
too hot to do things wrt story ideas too hot to write ideas down for later i guess i'll try to convince myself the ideas weren't great
tfw you try to write some cuteness about your children and end up with sadness instead unfortunate consequences of my ocs having lots of baggage, rip me (and my heart)
the part of me that says I should detail Every bit of background and extraneous character fluff and the part of me that says I should just chill and only focus on what's necessary for the character development are continually locked in a vicious war
on another tack >"oh I'll just do some quick doodles to fuss with this character's design and get a feel for them" >spends six hours screaming about perspective on background elements instead
