Crow Puns And Other Bullshit

also my psych meeting went well, he wants me to bump up fromt 80mg to 100mg to counteract all the physical stress i'm still under. we're on the right track tho. this is the sweet spot i think, esp bc like.. i've only had a few setbacks. the only meds thats increasing is the antidepressant luckily, the heavy hitter is stable at the low dose. I'm getting a blood test on the 9th tho after fasting, to make sure it's not fucking with my blood sugars and shit. We Shall See.

 

i want to experience this tbh
save for the very end
i want this so badly

 

looking forward to the bump up in meds. i hope it helps.

 

>:/ couldnt get my meds today bc they don't keep as much 40mg's in stock. i needed 2 bottles of 40's to reach my 80mg per day and now i still need it to go with the 60's.

man keep that shit in stock.

 

had a great birthday yesterday, turning 30 didn't feel scary at all. roomie and i went to hibachi place that was. in hindsight it was p fucking weird. like. the interior was so fucking dark that it took a good minute to adjust and not bust my ass. we could barely see the decor they'd obviously gone out of their way to shove into every inch of the place. the carpet was also ridiculously sticky in some places like it'd never been washed. i'm talking like. trying to abduct my shoes sticky. it was also so hot in there. like.. ridiculously hot the entire place. no ac feels. we both left sopping wet from head to toe and if i didn't have an envelope to fan myself with i'd have been physically ill from overheating.

the food was delicious though! straight up goddamn delicious, i have 0 regrets. it was a hell of an experience lmfao.

when i got home i ate lemon cake i'd made, and then got.. ridiculously exhausted at like 9:30. went ahead and passed the fuck out. slept till 1am, felt wide awake, decided to keep trying to get comfy to sleep again bc fuck 4 hours of sleep. passed out till about 10am. still feel rlly sleepy but staying awake.

goddamn

 

Recently completed:
cape and hood

To complete:
time wheels
pajama pants
stripes on pants and skirt
touch up shirt edges
fuck with wig a lil bit
finish Dorito!!
organize room more
pack early
start hoarding things together for the move
keep launching myself at housing listings

oh yeah the moving sitch is funny bc, ysee
while looking at other apartment listings? i found our place.
listed for being available July 5th.
:V we'd originally been told end of july lmao

 

also gr8 news: i think my immunity to mothers day is building up + the meds are working. no bullshit today. no flailing, no crying, no upset. no nada. chill as a cucumber.

 

pinged my psych questioning a potential of Bipolar II in relation to me and my current dx. there's a lot of overlap and some p familiar shit as it is, and it might explain a few things that I don't really have explanations for otherwise. we won't get to talk till like. end of next month but hey at least i asked. :V and i'll have input later on one way or another.

 

my timing was impeccable, I opened zillow and found a place that'd be Perfect for us about an hour after it was posted, pinged the lady, got pinged back, and now we have a viewing at 1pm on saturday. it's like. legit right on the bus line we'd need. i'm Big Eyes at it. It's like 500sqft bigger than our current place, all nice wood floors, quiet neighborhood, right near grocery store.. Hhhhh it'd be Very Nice.

 

showing was canceled, whoever ran and saw it first whipped out their checkbook and got it lol. we're gonna look in earnest come june most likely, when more leases are expired and the flood of people begins to leave from the college and people with kids uprooting after the schoolyear. :V got to drive around and see a ton of nice shady neighborhoods tho.

i remember living in the high desert for so many years, in western colorado, and just. scrub grass and sharp ass pine trees and goatheads everywhere there WAS a bit of green so you couldn't actually go in the grass that wasn't already sharp grass. and there was green, yeah, but not nearly as much of it as you'd think or want.. and i remember the last time i got to visit my family in iowa after years of that and just seeing green and trees and smelling humidity in the air and just almost crying bc green is such a relief after toasted brown dirt orz

 

tonight's mood

 

THE OTHER MOOD OF TONIGHT

 

i saw this huge funko pop in the target earlier and let me say with no uncertainty that i would do absolutely obscene things if anyone ever gave it to me, because my god
look
huge bulbasaur friend
;C; i need it.....

 

critikal always makes me think Dave voice so this just makes everything better.

 

im trying to cut fabric but my cat wants to help. baby. baby stop trying to help me. i beg of you stop helping, fluffbutt.

 

all these places offering walkthroughs really don't seem to understand the concept of someone with a full time job from the look of things. even a lunch hour thing isn't an option for her because by the time she got there she'd have to turn around and go right back to campus to work again. 8l get outta here with your weekday only 9-4pm times, or work with us so we can be the long term renter of your dreams giving you that steady pay and 0 complaints from neighbors. 8////

 

its 86 out and i went to chipotle. ive never gone before. i got tasty food, had to go back down the street to get the chips and guac they forgot, and then wait on bus to go home. im drenched head to toe in sweat. but. tasty food get.

main reason i went was bc im sewing cosplay pants, i fucked up something, salvaged it, then did the next part perfect. ...only to discover a tiny little hole. in the fabric. caused by my cat doing her "grab fabric with teeth and then YANK game the other day when i was cutting fabric. i didnt even notice at the time... and the stitches are so small that ripping them out is almost going to be impossible against this fabric.

i have more fabric, enough for another two chunks to replace the piece since they're joined now already. ...but god i was so upset. 8lll so walk and lunch get to soothe myself.

 

looks like for this place goal is for me to go and take a fuckton of pictures, and she'll be doing an appearance if she can manage it. oof.

 

i found my old "how to forgive someone who was a compulsive liar" thread i made a few years ago about my now ex-husband.

:V boi that thread hasn't aged nicely lmfao.