Crow Puns And Other Bullshit

My psych gave me homework lmfao.

I'm to keep working on my Japanese, and start poking my math, and start running on a school-like schedule so I can be functioning by the time school starts and then just roll into the new schedule. She wants me to schedule breaks/rest time too. So I get in the habit and don't risk burnout. She also wants me to try identifying stress early, bc I have such a high coping response to it that I don't register anything is happening wrong till I almost implode/get sick/have an anxiety attack.

So. That's a thing lmfao. Yeehaw. :V

 

Moved furniture at 9:30-10:30pm! Got a wild hare up my ass apparently and got the energy and drive to do the thing. now have rudimentary desk/space for desk if better comes in the near future, and the game shelf nearer to my bed with the cage cubes on top of it for my pants/skirts/shorts and now enough room beside the bed i can actually access things properly. gonna put odds and ends away tomorrow when im not dead and its not nearly midnight, but ayyyy i did a thing :D

 

Got more tidying done, general shuffling things around. im so glad i discovered the joy of poster putty. its given me stars on my ceiling and a decorated wall of pretty pretty things. C:

 

im apparently a delicate flower and made myself sick sitting at my new floor desk, because I'm not used to being upright and leaning forward quite like that. :l im so dizzy...

 

me: clinical psychology good
also me: but what if psychiatry
psychiatry: bitch you need like 3 years of med school to ride this ride
still me: you saucy minx why must you torment me

 

Imo, the benefits that could come from more clinical psychologists with an interest in knowing a thing or two about psychiatry could be immeasurable. Psychologists generally spend so much more time with a patient. They may well be in a better position than a psychiatrist to help a patient evaluate whether a med is benefiting them, for example. A psychologist may also be able to help a patient figure out if a particular psychiatrist is a good fit and is providing them with quality care.

 

yeah rn the only difference to me is that the one requires med school bc i'd be capable of dispensing medication, but having the interest is gonna be a Thing i think. i'm just. fascinated by how the mind works and how the body and mind work together and how all the lil puzzle pieces fit together. but i don't think im smart enough for med school. so clinical psych might be what i Have to go for.

I'mma be a doc either way by the end of this, it'd just be a different path.

.... god thats a weird fucking thought.

 

i slept almost all day yesterday in a series of naps where i'd wake up and eat or pee or somethign then crash again
then i slept 9 hours last night
is no morning and im wanting to crash again
kind of concerning to note my roomie did the exact same thing before she got sick so im like :l re: infection with mystery illness.


fuck im sleepy

 

:D bag 1 arrived safely with its owner, now just gotta fingers crossed the other one makes it to singapore just as safely :D

 

ordered a tshirt lol

 

so it appears my psychiatry inclinations will have to Stay inclinations. I am Not predisposed to the types of math they require you to learn. i am very not-mathy. very not mathy. very. very not mathy.

clinical psych HO

 

GOT MY DESK MOVED INTO MY ROOM
ROOMIE AND I ALMOST DIED
BUT WE GOT IT IN
and there it shall stay till we move again, in which case we'll have big buff movers to do the moving.
god im so happy with it, its solid wood and has a ton of drawers in it and its a good height, i'll post pics when im not dead.

just freshly showered and im so content in this chilis tonight.

 

went through 4 stores today: international grocery store, dollar tree, lowes, and aldis.

i am. so dead. so tired. but i did it. i sweat buckets but i did it lmfao.

got from international grocery: ramyun, oden set for dinner, mochi, AND A BOTTLE OF THAT FIERY HOT CHICKEN RAMYUN SEASONING so i can spice my noodles up as i please!!, as well as huge doughnuts, and some coffee cream crackers from japan.

dollar tree: two packs of highlighters bc ive apparently been going through them fast and dont know when id be coming back next to get them so cheap, storage shit, over the door hanger, stickers, envelopes, cute hair clips, a plastic bin i plan to use as a planter for my aloe, filler paper bc im buzzing through it and i will be doing more so when school starts up, nail brushes, sponges, binders

Lowes: storage tote for extra fabric bc 1 tote is not enough now and i need it out of my room, fly traps bc we have a godawful amount of flies in our home somehow and they're not going away so fingers crossed these work bc i couldnt find a fly swatter or a fucking fly tape ANYWHERE

aldis: lots of food and snacks.

guess who has a devoted snack bin beneath their bed now B)

 

my brain is wanting me to do a ton of stuff that i just dont have the spoons for lmfao
its almost 9pm, im not taking my trash out and doing litter tonight, i'll do it in the morning

just. gotta ignore the twitching itch to do it.

 

I've had this gigantic framed picture of The Kiss for months now, and never did anything with it but keep it in my closet because I love the picture but it's just. the frame was too much. It weighed like ten goddamn pounds and was gilt looking and shit and just. not my style nor in my ability to keep. but i wanted the picture. so earlier in my fit of cleaning i finally harvested the print and put it on my closet with poster putty :3 and set the frame by the garbage for interested parties to take home.

 

tfw you drink coffee at 11pm because an ebay auction for some manga you want ends at 3am and you refuse to get sniped.

 

ive been having cramps since last night, but no period yet
make up your fucking mind, body, do i have sharks or not >:U
and why you so late???

 

idk what's up.
still no period, i guess it just. skipped this month maybe??? ? ? ? ??? internet says it might be linked to my meds, or it could just be random. no idea.
but i feel on edge and like something's wrong and i've felt stressed out all day.
i managed to draw and that felt nice? did two porns and an Angel Dust, but like i don't feel happy.
or relaxed.
idk how to relax anymore i guess, i just feel hyper alert and anxious without the anxiety feels. :<

 

i thought i had the same math teacher as usual but i do not. this one has very different methods and requirements and its scaring me.
i'm anxious as fuck about it. about doing something wrong. about failing the baby math course yet again.
i'm anxious about all of my courses. i was so excited but now im just scared and tense and i can't calm down.
i've tried distracting myself, i've showered, i've eaten and drank enough, I've taken my meds. idk whats going on, why am i so terrified.

 

period came last night lmfao right as i was going to bed
not nearly as anxious now
i guess a lot of it was pms???? i don't get that ever as a symptom of pms, and this time none of my usual period symptoms happens so im like
wtf body