Crow Puns And Other Bullshit

changing from aripiprazole to ziprasiodone because I've gained like 40+ pounds over the last year from the medicine. I haven't changed my diet or exercise at all but ive been Gaining And Gaining. apparently aripiprazole is an older antipsychotic and brings with it increased appetite and weight gain, but this other one is a new kind and has no such side effect so. fingers crossed tbh.

 

asked the doctor what to do about the degenerating disc and the scoliosis and he said to keep doing the mental health treatment that im not doing and the pt that i haven't started yet.

sir
sir
how does that fix a degenerating disc
siR
SIR HOW DOES THAT FIX A CURVED SPINE

 

hip surgeon said it was indeed hip impingement and there might be a labral tear
sooooo i need to schedule hip MRIs
:l what part of my body HASNT been MRId at this point in my life jfc.

 

new meds seem to be going okay so far. no major side effects. some vision things but nothing huge.
mostly i just feel jazzed. like. excited.
but also hella apprehensive because "holy christ school shit just dropped, sAVE ME IM SO OVERWHELMED ALREADY...."

....... yet jazzed.

 

holy shit right after posting that i passed tf out till just before 6am then dozed again till 9. in the wrong side of the bed. in weird positions.
im sore. ._.

 

feelin' a wee bit overwhelmed again for classes hahaha. I'm excited but Whoof, overwhelmed. Just. All in all feeling tense. I bought a planner and was filling it in and there's so much stuff to do and so many overlaps... god. this is gonna be a tough semester.

 

oh gross, my ex is a dad now.
poor child all i can say is

 

in better news: im still a fucking ball of sunshine today. i did so much cleaning. half the livingroom is walkable again, the wheelchair is back downstairs, and i swept the exposed floor. i also did laundry. and started reading and taking notes on my biology course to be prepared. i need to start with math too but. blech.

 

congrats on clean!! :D hope you can send some cleaning energy my way haha...

(also eternal mood re: math. fucking math)

 

SENDS THE GOOD VIBES ACROSS THE FUCKING COUNTRY LIKE A BASEBALL

 

class starts tomorrow and im Anxiety about it still. I've taken 21 pages of notes in the last 2 days, have my planner prepared, and took two intro quizzes I needed to take for my math class. im doing everything i can to be ready. but Boi, Anxiety Be Real.

 

im finding such simple pleasure in waking up early lately for some reason...

 

rooms haunted
just saw a manga volume lift up and drop from my bookshelf
not slip out somehow, i mean i saw it lift and drop on its own
i havent touched it in over a month, the cat was near me, i wasn't moving and haven't moved in over an hour and nowhere near the shelf, and it wasn't in a position where it would fall

rooms haunted :V

 

time to say hi and start setting boundaries about where and when it's allowed to bother you!

 

I already told it it can stay and chill, but pls for to not dropping things like that because 1. it almost landed in the cat water dish and got ruined and 2. if my cat had been there and hit it probably would have only scared her but I don't want to risk heavier things dropping and hurting her. :U if its chill i don't mind what it does tbh. its when its obnoxious that it'll bring about the rose lalonde cosplay and the pot and pan while i chant "wispy motherfucker get outta my house".

 

that's how you deal with ghosts [thumbs up]

congrat on new friend

 

did a load of dishes despite ouch, washed my chair's blanket, cleared the rest of the floor, put books away, sorted trash. i still need to sweep but like, that can wait. and roomie is putting the dishes away when it's done. aaaaand... im swapping the blanket to the dryer in an hour. and otherwise, im gonna lay the fuck down and chill bc j f c my back kills. like, the muscles on either side of my spine are just ANGY at me. I wonder what I can do to ease the ouch but keep strengthening them...

uhhhhhh. feeling good otherwise. first class went well! apparently i'll only be seeing him for like ten or so minutes per meeting because I'll be focused on my lab group after that. Still kinda anxious about Italian tomorrow, but we shall see how it goes. (It has to go well, like. There's no other options. I have to pass this class and the second level for my degree lol.)

 

ALSO my psych course has ZERO tests or exams but like. The intro quizzes were ROUGH. like. im gonna get slammed in the ass on the process of APA citations rough.

 

POUNDED IN THE BUTT BY THE PROCESS OF APA CITATIONS by Chuck Tingle

 

i have been informed by someone who knows muscles more than me to "stop doing shit, stupid" for a while xD so. gonna try to resist Doing All The Things for the next few days lmfao.

good timing, im p much done with everything major for now B)