Crow Puns And Other Bullshit

21% on the math

i can't wait till this semester is over so i can CLEP out of this fucking class, i hate the teacher so much.

A'S AND B'S FOR MY GRADES IN ALL MY CLASSES.
THEN THERE'S THIS BINCH.

 

found out why i was so ick yesterday!!! i was in withdrawals! it wasn't the pain pill it was the Lack of the pain pill. so i was fielding more discomfort AND going through withdrawals, because i hadn't put a tablet in my pill holder. The More You Know~

 

next surgery date: get! May 7th.

 

58% on my biology test... this is just not my week

 

weird dreams. wild dreams. dreams that left me discontent and sad upon waking.

my moms death and decline and her ghost.
my cat getting lost among tons of other cats and easter bunnies and someone trying to pawn some other cat off on me when I can tell my baby from others easily.

feel nauseated and cold.

 

wild fucking dreams.

feferi and john were merpeople and i was too apparently and we were in this big building/school full of people with superpowers and we got around via tubes bc no feets and then evil people came and took over the school and i was the only person left uncaptured. and then the building turned out to be on my ex in laws property and they were involved somehow with guard dogs. i managed to get everyone loose and get help from the other students but it was too late and then i was in some kind of weird stage coach building that was being run by evil cats trying to kill me and two other cats i was with. one of them had kittens, i guess i was expecting. managed to get loose, almost got caught at the very end when we were free bc someone tried to shoot us but one of the guard dogs from the first dream showed up and mauled him. then i guess i delivered kittens and one of them had sixpoint eyes, whatever that was, but it was important

and then i woke up in a deep sweat having no idea where i was for a good five minutes

 

dislike new med. feel weird. can feel it changing my pulse rate and its uncomfortable. then the nausea hits.

ugh ugh ugh.

 

feeling sad about jade harley hours have ended
put jade harley into threeway porn as a means of coping hours have begun

 

plans for today: EriFef smut and uh. Class. I guess.

 

what do i need to do to find someone to date who'd curl up with my sick ass and play animal crossing.
like. do i need to put treats down and go psspsspsspss at the crossroads at midnight???

 

sometimes im sad then i remember ill soon have a bro strider tiddy mouse pad to play bongos on and im happy again

 

another day, another round of smut to draw. johndaverose is next on the slab, and after that idk, we'll see where the wind takes us.

 

finished the johndaverose, moved on to johndavedirkjake.

meds not causing harm apaprently despite side effects, doc wants me to stay on them.

 

uh. add to that tally: jadekan, pinup bro, consentacles dave, and rosevris.

also im in withdrawals from my oxy and it sucks.

 

brain is still pulling some fuckshit about my tits but im doing well today. super soft blankie came in the mail somehow and i had a super hot shower without getting sick or fainty from it and i am the comfiest burrito now. did my homework. wanna draw but we'll see how that goes. today has just been a generally slow day.

 

got a meeting with a dietician in an hour, we'll see if she's got anything new to say lol

 

so i get to talk with top surgeon on tuesday. same dude as before. i'm excited, he's apparently an excellent surgeon, but I'm so nervous.. we'll have to see how things go. i'll get all my questions answered, and see how things will proceed from there.

 

feeling a lil nauseated, but so far so good with the vaccine!

 

im excited for tuesday but im also so fucking anxious, my god.

 

im not anxious now, im scared. like. outright scared for consultation tomorrow. My insurance just kicked back my hip surgery request and insists I get hip injections done first before they'd consider allowing it. tomorrow I talk to the top surgeon. and like. what if insurance does the same thing? now that I'm confident about getting it, now that I've made up my mind and am ready to proceed and feel the strong need to be on with this step of my life, what am I going to do if they just say "Nah" and dismiss it? What then?? idk what to think, I'm bracing for the worst and hoping for the best. god.