Curious about unusual stress/danger responses

In the moment, I have no fucking fear.

About a month ago, I was held up at gunpoint at the Mount Baker light rail station in Seattle. The conversation went roughly like this:

Robber: hand it over
Me: no
Robber: I'll shoot you
Me: no you won't
Robber: I've taken the safety off
Me: no you haven't, don't bullshit me
Robber: I'll shoot you!
Me: in front of these security cameras? What kind of idiot are you?
Robber: <runs away>

My heart rate didn't even change.

 

I feel like I should express some sort of sympathy but that is kind of badass.

 

Sort of a delightful mixture of badass and utterly lacking in self-preservation.

 

I Absolutely Cannot Deal with other people wondering if I'm okay.

The time I flipped my bike in a busy intersection, I picked myself and the bike up and walked the mile home, because cars were pulling over and it was stressful. I had a moderate concussion, but that was less important than telling people I was fine so they'd leave me alone.

When there are things that don't directly affect me, I do the cold thing. I prioritize what needs to be done, determine what help I can give, give it, and get out of the way. I almost never am the person who rushes over to ask if someone is okay, but if someone falls and I can catch them before they hit their head, I do. When I called an ambulance for Boyfriend, I also made sure he had his phone and his wallet and clean clothes and so on, so he'd be comfortable at the hospital. The emotional reaction part just doesn't kick in until afterwards.

 

SAME
why is people fussing over one so very... intrusive and unpleasant? No get your hands off me it doesn't matter that I've split my skull open i'll walk it off

 

I get avoidant or outright bitchy when fussed after.