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Like everyone interpretes rules differently but that interaction _very_ strongly clashed with the spirit of the space we were in and it has happened a few other times already and I wonder if I'm just, like, paranoid.

 

I'm starting to wonder if my non-fucked up knee is actually the one that's fucked up b/c apparently the way my fucked up knee gets numb is how regular people's knees get numb when they sit in weird positions.

Whereas my non-fucked up knee.... bends in all directions.... with no resistance.....

 

Why am I watching Madoka Rebellion again???? I don't even like this movie.

(It's because the transformation sequences are fucked up and I love that, it's because the music fucks and I love that too, and also the fight scenes look like Lisa Frank's grunge phase and literally nothing else looks quite like them.)

(The plot is also for the most part Not Hot Garbage until it suddenly 100% is hot garbage.)

 

AGDQ is here, but IDK how much I'll actually watch b/c I'm having money trouble (so can't donate) and not having that big party atmosphere makes me sad :(

 

I ended up watching ADGQ anyway.

I had a very funny moment of "... I know you're Finnish, but I don't know how I know you're Finnish" with the runner of Megaman 11 during the interview, and then he started his run by going "Greetings from Finland!" and, well. We have no choice but to go "torille" ┐( ・∇・)┌

 

Me, preparing to explain a thing from Drakengard 3 to my friend: "btw promse you won't google any of what I'm about to say to you"

 

Like Drakengard 3 is Extremely My Shit, and I would never in a million years recommend it to anyone.

 

*cries b/c there's so much comedic and dramatic potential in TFP to make Bulkhead The Normal One ™ /the straight man, but if I want to see it I have to write it myself*

 

Watching the second half of Season 2 like "I KNEW IT! Nobody is that well-adjusted!!!" every time.

 

Like it's incredible how the lack of one specific character puts me off 90% of the fic out there I by and large like everything else about. I try to pick long fics where the premises look interesting and the style is engaging and then inevitably get bored b/c there's not enough Bulk >:(

 

I'm making one of those trick cubes that is stuck inside a bigger cube and need to figure out how to match a hole that is off-center...

 

I wish fic with top!Rodimus was easier to find.

 

Like by and large I think arguing about who tops and who bottoms is pointless and ideally everyone will just be doing everything in fic to cover all the horny bases, but sometimes certain characters get only written one or two ways and it makes me want to read anything but those one or two things.

So, like, yes, I get why fandom likes Roddy either as "trades sex for validation" bottom of "king slut now when he's away from the social expectations to deny himself pleasure" bottom but neither of those is relatable to me, personally, and occasionally you just wanna vicariously enjoy things through a character you like :(

 

But I don't WANNA go to school I don't WANNA work, I don't Wanna be productive!!

I want someone with fat tits to sit in my lap and let me touch their butt while we cuddle :(((

 

I also want money for COMMISSIONS!!!!

 

Backreading a fandom blog that was abandoned in late 2016 is like opening a window to a separate dimension... I happen to know this person got harassed to hell and their current online presence is much more sedate -- they just plain talk less about the things they love, with a much more restrained enthusiasm, and it frankly kinda breaks my heart because here they are! Being, just, like, lovely, and positive, and excited, and filled with nothing but love and enthusiasm about the thing that makes them happy.

The literal whiplash of seeing them go "yeah, I'm actually okay with drawing [NOTP] now, I'm a lot more confident in myself :)" fucks me up to a degree where I don't quite have the words to explain just why it makes me so sad.

 

"S/O to [friend who has also all but vanished from fandom] for being so enthusiastic and positive about [the ship that made the fanpol lose their mind]"

Fucking oof.

 

Also the fact that there are jokes

both about sex and also just... silly shit. The comfort moving from an erotic moment to a domestic one and back again and the level of comfort with sex Just As A Thing People Do and the small touches of characterisation embedded in the porn

like I came into this fandom barely before this blog got abandoned and I have interacted with this person once but the sense of loss is still very real.

 

I speak to my friends. I am overcome with how adorable they are.

 

The best part is that I can just, like, compliment them whenever I want.