Garage bulletin board

Does it sound like I'm conflating a lot of problems? I am, yes. This is both me genuinely just being whiny about how being a good ally is hard, and also venting about how I feel disbelieved about the shape of my own thoughts. You can't read a motivation backwards into my actions,either.

 

Absolutely phenomenal to be on the internet.

 

IDK I feel like I wouldn't be nearly as dramatic and torn up about this if people didn't say "nobody believes when we talk about our problems" to mean "I don't want to hear about your problems because surely someone has already taken them seriously"

Like no, trust me. If they had, I would have stopped talking about them. I no longer complain about so many things because the problem has been solved, even if I don't like the solution.

 

Ah, I got what I wanted -- the part I'm setting decided to shot off the jaws and throw my zeroes off entirely.

 

The type of Person on Tumblr I find the most frustrating is not actually the screeching hellsauruses of judgment, or the smug, self-righteous reactionary

It's the "you may not actually be an anti, but if someone presented you with a post from them without context you'd probably agree and are woefully incapable of picking up on their dogwhistles" unrealized radfem.

Like... As a person, they seem nice, but as far as the culture war I care about goes, they could go either way, and I'm not gonna stick around and find out.

 

I think I'll write a theme that turns the "next work in collection" button into one that looks like the "next chapter" button.

 

Binged most of SummoningSalt's content. The MK64 Quest for World Record Perfection has a narrative like nothing else.

 

I seriously wonder if spending so much of my time from 16 to 20 on Tv Tropes helped or hindered my ability to analyse media.

I want to say it helped, but people keep saying tropers saying that just proves that tropers are bad at analysing media :///

 

Does anyone else wish there was more discussion of parasocial relationships that was, like... accessible to autistics or other people with social developmental issues?

I hear allistics describe them all the time in ways that is. Quite literally the least relatable thing I've ever heard. Repeating to my face "I am a character" doesn't tell me anything new. Of course you are a character. Everyone is a character. I may feel kinship over the shared performance but we don't know each other.

(Unsurprisingly I'm one of those people who regularly needs to ask "hey, are we friends enough for me to make this joke?" from people. I live in a world of relatively little emotional permanence. I start every conversation by trying to figure out if we're still in the same emotional space as we were where we last left.)

 

I also don't relate to the sensation of constantly being watched, and constantly watching people watching me being, like, a new horrible social media plague. Like, yeah, that's life? Welcome to hypervisibility and rooms falling quiet when you walk in b/c you've got a reputation and you don't know how you got that reputation and you're just trying to exist and you want to be seen less but you also want to be seen more.

Welcome to being disabled?

 

People say that the Gaur Plains theme fucks, and they are, honestly, entirely correct.

But for me the original "oh fuck chills" song associated with a wide open area is gonna be Archylte Steppe in FF13

 

Just witnessed the most incredible example of an anti coming blustering into a thread with far-flung accusations and a completely opaque set of definitions for words which have very common, easily understandable definitions, and then immediately folding and going "you're making me uncomfortable, stop talking to me", when the person they were responding to basically told them to stop propagandising in response to something they said.

Like the world's most fragile conspiracy theorist.

The way the internet has taught people to self-victimise as a powermove is undeniable. I used to think the wounded doe shit was just me having a particularly low threshold for being made out to be the aggressor but good lord the shit I sometimes see.

 

And I don't go seeking this shit out, mind. I have had to very consciously block and blacklist a ton of urls of people who discoursepost a lot b/c my triggers are so unpredictable. Sometimes seeing critiques that feature certain rhetoric, even for the purpose of debunking it, can set me off. This is just what existing on the internet is like, now.

 

None of the streamers I follow on Twitch went online yesterday. Very proud of all of them.

(Except ESA, who still chose to not even interrupt their reruns.)

 

It sucks that the only people posting valveplug outside of friend-locked Twitters are people I know for a fact are antis.

They drove out everyone else then cornered the market and now I'm stuck having no visual porn to look at. Luckily fic at least is still getting written and posted steadily without me needing to literally be friends with the people writing it to gain access to it.

 

OKAY BUT I DON'T thiNK I'LL EVER stop BEINg EMOTIONAL about how pre-2016, I used to never hear people correctly gender Narcissa Wright, and now someone trying to misgender her is usually getting fucking reamed in the comments.

on Youtube

Like do you know. What that means to me.

 

Is birth

Happ birth to me :V

 

If someone wants to feel clever with me today, I realised why as a machinist I'm likelier to be working with complex aluminium (and plastic) parts than I am with complex steel parts.

It's more cost-effective to make the complex steel parts by welding lots of small simple parts together :D

 

"Don't tag as ship" oh, excuse me, sure thing

"Don't tag as ship or [threat]" fuck you, actually

 

"but I've tried being polite and people still do it!" so you decided to be rude and threatening towards everyone, not just the people violating a stated boundary? You decided to make this space a little more hostile to everyone except those willing to virtue-signal about Hating The Same Thing?