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So recently I solicited and received excellent Windscream fic (because I saw pretty art and was like "alright yeah I need these two to fuck ASAP")

Which may have led me to binge-read TAAO last night.

I'm just saying I can't believe Maighread Scott and spockandawe Co-invented romance.

 

Like shit you guys turns out the award-winning robot comic is good actually. Am I no longer a hater? Do I have to turn in my IDW antifan card?

 

I am confused about why the true form Starscream thing is so contentious, but that's for me to discuss on my robot server, I think.

 

someone: *says something complimentary about my observational skills*
me: *cringing and curling up* don't perceive me don't perceive me

 

I started watching one of those "[topic] EXPERT reacts to VIRAL [topic] HACKS!" and the first one has ten minutes of two Americans losing their shit about blowing eggs and how "gross" raw egg is. Crisse it was embarrassing to watch.

I got as far as "OMG LOOK AT THE EXPIRATION DATE" before I checked out, I simply cannot tolerate this level of alienation.

 

wait a minute

did I just get pspsps-ed into a friendship?

did someone... just use my tactics with me?

:D

 

so that's what that looks like from the receiver's side....

 

Another casualty of the anglophone internet being so heavily American is that people love to derail discussions about civil wars.

Just because the Yankee Civil War was stupid doesn't mean I'm not allowed to be drawn to the almost familial tragedy of other civil wars and civil war narratives.

 

Y'know it occurs to me that I've never seen porn with a character who has the same mobility issues as me.

That is largely because my blorbos who have mobility issues are either have far more limiting physical disabilities and I do and I don't like looking at porn of them because it always feels so fetishising, or that the mobility issues are entirely headcanon on my part and fandom by large considers them able-bodied.

 

Seriously shower sex is much more improved by the addition of a chair or a stool, which is basically a necessity for me. Chairs and pillows as positioning aids are almost nowhere in fic. I like both riding and doggy style and they're basically never written in a way where I see myself in them, either topping or bottoming.

 

There's a blogger that I like who has good takes but man they keep having a go at other bloggers I like, assuming that they're far more conservative and restricting and talking about other people's comfort when they were talking about themselves and it's just so uncomfortable to watch.

Like dude that person!! For sure!! Agrees with you about the points that you're using to tell them they're out of their lane and trying to suppress people! You're reading so much into their personal position just because you happen to be at the tail end of a chain where they're responding to other people treating their personal position as a political statement!!

 

Even worse is that the blogger they're doing it is autistic and gets attacked by people for things they flat-out never said and has made a point about including "people might think I mean X when I say this. But I assure you I am talking about Y because the conversation always being turned to X limits my ability to talk about Y"

 

Actually this isn't even about the first blogger, this is about how the second blogger gets treated like shit on Tumblr and accused of things they never said because people go out of their way to read positions they do not hold into what they say and try to control the conversation that person is trying to have.

But if I point this out in public I'm just gonna get told "well the people doing it are ALSO neurodivergent so it's not ableist!" or "people keep calling ME neurotypical when I'm not so you're also doing that by pointing out my allistic behaviour"

 

Ro Ramdin is my new favourite Youtuber and possibly favourite Internet Person.

 

Like not in a parasocial way, in a "fuck how are these scripts so tight", "has yet to tell a joke that didn't land", "I think her perspectives on things are interesting and well substantiated in writing" and "cute c:" kind of way.

 

Me: "haha yeah I'm managing my OCD well"

Also me: *five hours into an anxiety attack about being a Bad Exploiter because Khadija Mbowe made a joke about whoring her personality out and being right that I watch her content as opposed to other people's content because I enjoy her on-camera presence*

 

Like no amount of telling myself I don't even look at Patreon exclusive stuff or announcements because I realised I don't care about that stuff is helping. Triggered by the implication that I am bad because ??? something something dehumanisation.

 

Doesn't matter that it was clearly a joke. Doesn't matter that she's clearly not a sex worker. I'm "buying access" and I'm thus comparable to all the people who will pay for a pinky and try to take the whole hand.

 

I got so fucking upset about this I posted both here and on DW lmao. Good job brain this is definitely worth spiraling over.

 

Managed to finally get my logic brain to kick in. Bleh.

I s2g. "what if I'm somehow doing this thing people say is bad without any knowledge or memory of doing it, let alone an opportunity to do so" what if shut up, it's not about you.

The worst thing about a persecution complex is just how utterly stupid it can be.