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Dark mode is absolutely an accessibility tool and people making fun of people asking for a dark mode are smug and callous but people loudly going "AAHHHH MY EYESSS" whenever someone uses light mode while screensharing have some of the worst ability to read the room I've ever seen

 

This is not, like, a middle ground high ground kind of position, I'm capable of being annoyed by two kinds of people at once without pretending I'm better than them <- dark more user who makes fun of my friends for their bright white screenshots with pathetic contrast

 

Played a bit of Darksiders and I am endlessly delighted by immensely thirsty for War Samael is compared to how passively disinterested in Death he is in Darksiders 2. Gentlemen prefer blondes, or something.

 

Like, it tracks! Samael is second only to Satan in power, and a general of Hell who leads from the front compared to the Prince of Darkness. Samael loves a good fight, and even though Death has his moments, none of the Horsemen love carnage as much as War does. It's easy to forget that he is literally a fiery ball of fighting spirit, because he's so calm and composed on the outside, but that's what makes him fun to mess with, which is another thing Samael loves doing with people he respects.

 

Look, as someone who cannot stand hypocricy above all else, I still think it's a problem that any time people talk about Lily Orchard's garbage opinions, they compulsively bring up that time she wrote darkfic.

That's not relevant. That's about as relevant as that one time a TERF friend of JRK's was spotted reading smutty Harry Potter fanfic.

 

It's so funny that in every Mesmerizer role swap version I've seen, Miku in the salesman outfit has visibly bigger boobs than Teto.

 

Quoting a post I just saw:

See, I understand the point posts like these are making? Like, I understand that if you live in a discourse niche it's easy to suddenly posture your way into conservatism by taking too many steps into contrarianism.

But at the same time, when you are in a discourse niche, what are we actually accomplishing by acting like it's not a niche? Like, my goodness, did you guys know that normies don't like the stuff we like?

 

I've never understood posturing as a defensive reaction to posturing. Do you wanna be popular or do you wanna be niche, my guy?

 

I guess it's time for me to acknowledge that when I say that I know some people are doing compulsive disavowal not from a place of OCD-driven scrupulosity but rather an addiction to being Good and Correct, I really am just going off vibes.

The main vibe being "I've seen enough instances of people loudly and violently disavowing a thing before going back to talking about that exact thing except their thing is different", which, really, I recognise what a shallow pool that is. Logically speaking, it's probably likelier that a lot more people than anyone knows or wants to admit do have OCD-like scrupulosity symptoms, and that fandom discourse is a safe space to do rituals about them than other spaces, thanks to a combination of low stakes and a level of personal detachment.

I just don't like admitting this. Something about thinking that someone else could have my issues but not as bad as I did really isn't comfortable for me to admit. It's much nicer to think about people like that as posers, where if I tell them that them playacting the distress I actually have is directly harmful to me, just like how antis policing dark content made by survivors is harmful to survivors, but that would not be an intellectually honest position for me to take.

 

Because when it's pointed out to me, I really fucking hate the style of argument that relies on creating an Unaffected, Cool In-Group With Guts And Candor that can take conversations about aaaaaany grody shit head on and be flippant about it as the desireable way to engage with these topics. Like, that's just never gonna be me, and me being designated into the Cringe Oversensitive Kiddypile is extremely alienating as someone who's also been kicked out of fandom communities for being a little too much of a sadistic freak and also gotten harassed by antis for pointing out the shit they're saying put me in the hospital for a month.

 

Sidenote: the fucking irony of reblogging a post from someone I have little respect for because it made the point that sometimes the most effective smear campaign is the hearsay kind -- in this case, this person had a false rumour about them acting racist and saying the n-word repeatedly that to this day gets quoted as fact -- and then immediately running into a post where a rando just walks into their replies and goes "yeah blogger X sent rape threats to me" and going "really? :0 that totally conforms to my existing negative impression of this person!!"

You see, it's different when we gossip about someone. They're not in our in-group!

 

Like does this rise to the level of "a thing I should address publicly" or is this a "exclusive to the members of Van's Discord DMs" thing? Does pedojacketing matter to anyone if the target isn't a highly visible white trans woman?

 

I keep trying to give Rowan Ellis a try, but 1) her house style is sooooo booooooooring to me and 2) any time I watch one of her videos it messes up my YT front page with recommendations for drama channels I have negative respect for

 

Streamers: *starts singing as a joke*
Me: oh no, if I didn't want to fuck you before :||||

 

pretty men with long hair gotta stop being able to sing. I can only get so hard before I pass out.

 

It's incredible to me that people will just say to trans men's faces that being able to detransition back into womanhood is a privilege. I genuinely do not have it in me to talk about how disgustingly transphobic that is.

 

Not to continue being a petty bitch, every time I see long threads where writers are actively despairing about how they're getting ZERO COMMENTS on their fics, I remember how the pitch for Rekudo went over when I posted about it here.

Like, I can accept that in my excitement I elbowed some people in a thing they were sensitive about. But what the fuck am I supposed to do other than keep shilling for a tool I've continued working on because I want to believe that people reading fic have at least the self-preservation to realise that writers will quit writing if they stay lonely and discouraged by the lack of feedback.

 

Like IDK what more writers can do to entice comments other than to keep saying that they really do want the most frivolous, contentless, simple comments. That no comment needs to be perfect. IDK what else I can keep saying other than "there are ways to get better at leaving comments/making it less scary for yourself." I don't want to have this conversation with someone who gets offended to my face about me saying "people should be leaving more comments" -- I'm sorry you feel guilt-tripped. If you're never gonna leave comments you're not my fucking audience, and I can't read your mind. I don't know who I am talking to online.

 

Like if I was discouraged out of working on Rekudo by people going "you making this tool is guilt-tripping me out of a behaviour pattern I personally am totally comfortable with", I wonder how all the writers who get zero comments and then get told they're guilt-tripping for comments by saying "HEY I FEEL LIKE SHIT" feel.

People complain about compulsory positivity and then proceed to take other people's negative feelings so fucking personally I s2g.

 

Oh, yeah, I never mentioned it here but when I reached out to a couple of writers who reblogged Rekudo to complain that "Second kudos!" wasn't a substantial comment to leave with helping me develop Assist mode, they ended up a) not contributing to the project b) ghosting and blocking me on Discord and Tumblr c) continuing to complain about insubstantial engagement and people leaving "bad comments", and I vote that we put those people and the "it's my god-given right to never comment and treat the author like a slot machine to get entertainment tokens out of" together in the same room and ask them to solve the problem of deteriorating sense of community in fandom.