he needs some milk

i should make cosplay of my classpect. i’m late but i don’t care. i don’t like the attention and the pressure. it’s too much for a gay teenager in 2012. i needed time and i’m on my own time. don’t call it autism or adhd or schizophrenia or bipolar or bpd. i’m just a fucking person

 

these few years are probably the meanest i’ve ever been in my life and it took a hell of a lot for me to be pushed that far. i’m sweet

 

oof yesterday was rough and today has the potential of being rough too

 

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5357633/

i’m not sure i didn’t read this but i think this validates my theory

 

my cognition changed in a way that i liked more when i was off the internet and out of this culture for a while

 

i want muscles i want to like science by myself as me for me and inspired by me. i’m me

i am me

 

i had a breakthrough for an affirmation to say with my heart sub-verbally

i am peace

 

i just realized i can say "we're not gonna get into it right now"
it's a perfectly ǝɟɐs puɐ pᴉlɐʌ way to set a boundary without expressing obnoxiously that you have mental health issues

 

im playing heaven will be mine to try to get over my issues with lesbians

 

i had nothing to worry about with that older gay man. he’s exactly the kind of friend i wanted. just a respectful person to compare experiences with

 

i didn’t share much about my history but i did share what little art i have currently

 

i should not have drinken that much coffee. iced coffee hits me like a ton of bricks esp with the simple syrup. whyyy

 

“drinken” is the past tense of “drunk”

 

i just had like a solid 3 hours of just actual chilling

not only in the act of doing nothing but also just actually being at peace and in a relaxed mood

 

one of my friends from Before the Thing asked me if i could find an emergency contact so he knows if i'm ever arrested or anything happens to me again

i'm having trouble processing the concept that bad things shouldn't happen to me

 

im wondering if anybody here wants to address my arguments re: being truscum in page 7 of my brainbent thread

 

does anybody wanna join my stream where i will be streaming heaven will be mine

 

OKAY.... WHOA... i'm just gonna quit making thread for attention (for attention, it's for attention. i get it.) and just hang out in my blog here because chances are people are mostly creeped out and yucked out by me.
UPDATE. the person who left me all traumatized came back doing a whole bunch of shady shit in public and lying to kids about their age. i was genuinely scared.

 

this is going to take some processing


TW
also i've already had like 5 donuts tonight and last night and i have 2 more in the fridge. so fuck that. brb i'm about to throw them out

 

fuck i just sprayed lysol air spray over an open cup of tea

i liked that tea