help i am not good at names

Talked with colleagues about work and apparently I am not actually that behind and what I’ve done is actually decent so fuck anxiety I guess.

 

Also I spent a good part of today making my inner nine year old happy

 

All the coronavirus news has sent me into full blown hypochondria. I am pretty sure I either don’t have it or am asymptomatic, but I don’t think I have ever been more aware of how my throat feels.

 

Had a really good day yesterday but now I’ve just had a throbbing headache all morning and I just want to sit under a blanket until it goes away.

unfortunately I don’t think that has any actual therapeutic effect.

 

Did a quarantine haircut - came out better than expected.

 

Things I could do

• Knit
• Work on the lost light tarot deck
• Write that da fanfic that I’ve been wanting to write for literally years
• Replay da2 and inquisition partially as reference for the fanfic but also cause I like them
• Write something about my newest craft obsession
• Do some of my newest craft obsession
• Sort out my bookshelves

Things I am doing

• Animal crossing

 

I’ve also been working because my work situation has not been affected by Covid in any way whatsoever and I have been pretty productive, but.

 

Decided to do the bookshelves

 

Finally, finally finished with the big work project.

 

I'm playing through the endgame of the Bag a Legend ambition in fallen london, and it's just perfect for my character and I am having all of the emotions.

 

Listening to the Nier Automata soundtrack is not helping with the emotions

 

how is it friday

 

This may really be a post better suited for General Advice, or even ITA (although it's not really abuse related, just overlaps the same conceptual area I guess?) but eh.

My mum is moving house. She has to be out on Monday. The house she is buying, however, will not be ready until some time in August. During the time inbetween she will be living with me. Which I'm a bit worried about. We get on well, most of the time, but my flat is small and I've got out of practice at living with other people and I don't really know how I'm going to cope with someone else in such close proximity for an extended amount of time.

 

Mum’s settling in. It’s ok? I can tell I’m stressed out about it because I have far less spoons than usual, but it’s not going badly.

 

Thinking about my fantrolls again.

 

I can tell I’m starting to drift into depression again and there’s nothing I can really do about it other than hope it’s temporary.

 

I mean, talk to people? Why would I want to do that??? hahahahaaaaaaaaaa

 

I know I'm only an internet person, but please take care. Eat something delicious, drink some water, and know that you can always come to my thread and yell if you need to, okay?

 

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling considerably better today.

Sorry if I worried you too much. I'm just not great at asking for help and currently don't have many offline people I can talk to.

 

Spoiler: mental health stuff i guess

So I wrote this in reply to a tumblr post about essentially faking it til you make it by roleplaying the role you need to take on

and reading through it now it's like should I be worried about this? I'm not in this state of mind now, but I was throughout university and for several years after.