This is going to be a thread where I self-indulgently ramble about my fucked-up head. Please feel free to say things and/or poke at me through the cage bars. ADHD Depression Internet addiction Avoidance Various things have been tried. Ritalin doesn't work great, but it's better than nothing, even if it does certain weird things to me (feelings of hollowness, no sense of hunger or thirst, basically makes me asexual-- like, it gets rid of all the natural physical urges I'd normally have). I've tried a few antidepressants, but nothing has worked, so apparently I don't have a serotonin or norepinephrine problem. I do have low testosterone, so I got shots of T for a while, but there was no noticeable change after several injections. I don't really know how to cope. It'd be nice to at least pass this last semester and get a degree, but it feels like I'd just lose that last excuse to avoid entering a world that expects work I'm not equipped to handle. I'm not suicidal, and it feels like dying would be a shitty move, but being alive isn't all that fuckin' super either. Someone broken in the way I am can't perform certain essential functions of a person. I don't know how to get myself fixed.
