Spoiler: yeah i am fucked up hahaha I have a vagina that I hate. I have kinks I hate. I hate my face and body and once more flail back to wishing I was dead even on medication. Who even has kinks for noncon, snuff, asphyxiation, forced submission, knives, and other shit like that? No one good, that's for sure! Everything about me is fucking disgusting. Just absolutely fucking disgusting. I don't deserve my partner, I don't deserve anything. I wish someone would kill me like in those stupid snuff fantasies.
you got triggered by that one post about the kinks, huh? you know, a lot of folks here don't agree with that post. i sure don't. i've got several really good friends with kinks like yours, and they're good people too.
I didn't even see that post till now but I am a bad person because these things aren't sexy and shouldn't be sexy
vastderp has said on his blog that he has a noncon kink. is vastderp a bad person? Spoiler nope, and neither are you.
Vastderp has some redeeming features like being funny and being a good artist I don't have any of that
I think you're funny. And I'm pretty new here and don't know you super well but you seem like a nice person. Your brain is being a dick to you and that's not in any way your fault.
are you or are you not the person who came up with that wonderfully weird robot-eating space monster? that is one of the most creative creature designs i've ever seen. but you don't have to justify your feelings or your existence by having talents or anything like that. you're valid just as you are.
I don't want to be me I am a fucking asshole and I make my boyfriend feel bad and I cry about how the things that turn me on and I can't finish my commissions in a timely manner and everyone fucking knows I can't do anything right ever
i'm not going to keep addressing your points one by one, because the things you say during a meltdown are fears, not facts. instead, let me reiterate: you are good people. i like you. a lot of people here like you. it's going to be okay. and if hugs would help, please imagine a big squishy bear hug from me.
Why be average when you can be interesting? Nothing wrong with interesting. (Also seconding the hug. *snuggles you* )
Their loss. You're cool, you're as good a person as anyone else I know, and if there are parts of your life or thought process you think are genuinely problems, you deserve help addressing them.
you're gonna find you some meatspace friends and chosen family who understand and support you. in the meantime, you've got us. ^_^ i need to go to bed soon, my eyes are crossing. are you gonna be ok for tonight?
@Void I very much feel you on being poked in bad places by the post (and in my case the discussion) in tumblr txt. Aaaaaaaall of the hugs. All of them.
