regardless of whether or not you are i probably thinking you're scheming against me or laughing at me i remain unsure about the paranoia level right now but we'll just assume that i think you are and also that i hate you because you are scheming
yes but it's like 7am and people are probably either asleep, waking up, or heading to work/school, also i at least have no idea what to say apart from it is either very late or very early in lots of timezones where people live for example it is 1am here and i should sleep
Not sure if helpful but a partial confirmation: I am scheming, but my schemes are unrelated to this thread's contents.
yes, though often it's hard to know what to say. i'm sorry you feel bad. if possible, try to do something nice for yourself today - even, and especially, if you think you don't deserve it.
that is nice to hear And I get it being hard to know what to say, yeah. bluh. i am not even sure what doing a nice thing for me would even be
some thoughts: have a glass of water or a favorite drink (non-alcoholic, and if possible not heavily caffeinated either) touch something soft/pleasant eat something nice watch a soothing video or look at cute animal pics (I have this good animal tag on my tumblr, though it does contain the occasional insect if you're not into that) when I don't know what to do to make myself feel better, I use this resource a lot
I have tea. I guess that counts. Have agdq on still because they are soothing to look at. The runs. I don't want to eat though no. The thought of is making me cry actually. And nervous. Food would be a very bad idea outside of making sure I don't get dizzy from low bloodsugar.
like not recently but a few years back and it distresses me heavily I'd rather not have a fucking panic attack right now.
Sensory niceness? Touch something soft or with a nice texture, maybe try some ASMR IRL (I like wearing headphones or ear defenders and then tapping them with my fingernails), stare at a calming gif or other repetitive visual thing (iTunes visualiser maybe?), that sort of thing. I recommend eating a small thing that you don't actually like. I keep a packet of Ryvita in the cupboard for this - times when I know I need to eat something because human bodies do actually need regular fuel, but don't want to eat anything because of body image/food issues. It's not enjoyable, so I don't worry that I'll want to keep going and binge or anything like that, but I'm still getting at least a little bit of blood sugar boost etc. http://elphame.tumblr.com/ is my tumblr for things that make me laugh or smile. Skip the top two posts, they require more concentration; after that it is, as the tagline says, "mostly babies". (By which I mean animal babies.) Most of the time I forget it's there, but when I remember, it can really help.
Also - witnessed. I feel like this a lot. It has gotten a lot better, but it fucking sucks and it's really fucking hard to deal with.
did you know that the idea of fat=bad was actually made up by insurance companies to scam people? fat is vital to life. like, even apart from cell membranes having to be made of it, and brains and so on being about 90% fat, adipose tissue has thermoregulatory, immune, protective, and nutrient storage functions. and by nutrient storage, i mean things like fat-soluble vitamins. also, according to the seventh edition of the Campbell biochem textbook, you can get about 40% more energy from your food when eating less than 2000 calories a day, and use around 30% energy due to nonvital metabolic processes shutting down, plus intense lethargy (due to having no energy as every calorie is shunted into fat production). Also. During calorie restriction, every calorie not required for vital metabolic processes gets shunted into fat production, including breaking down muscle and turning it into (lighter, far more energy efficient) fat.
