Spoiler: mentions of cp, in case you missed the tags Hello. I compulsively seek out cp for masturbation fodder. I am not attracted to children. My theory is that I have come into this preference because I cannot be satisfied with standard taboo pornography. The wrongness and badness (shame, maybe?) is what fuels the drive to use this material to derive pleasure. I don't want to continue to do this, but cannot seem to stop. I am afraid that continuous access of this material is going to get me in legal trouble. I don't want to speak to my therapist about it, either. Again: I am not a pedophile. I have no sexual attraction to children. I have a compulsion to view cp during extended periods of self stimulation. I want to be better than this.