I know this doesn't have a real question in it, but I guess feedback would be nice. It's always cool realizing that you're good at something, but it's a bit frustrating that it took so damn long. Just realized that even though I have been telling everyone I know that I can't stand the idea of one day being a counselor or therapist (psych major, so it comes up a lot) for years and years (like, since middle school), I am actually really invested in keeping everyone in my group on an even keel. I think I only just realized this now because while I do really hysterically badly at talking people down in person (too much sympathetic reaction ugh ugh ugh), I have talked down three or four friends in the past month (It's been a stressful month). It's funny because I'm not going into counseling at all, nope, no way, if I do anything with my major, it will be research. But I figured out tonight that my brain/emotional state actually does way better if everyone i count as my "in-group" is on, if not an even keel, at least a pretty stable keel (how do i ship metaphor). Which I guess is the case for most people in friend groups. At any rate, I just figured out that my problem has never been the idea of counseling or therapy or helping people get a little more okay than previously, it's the fact that I can't deal with people emoting at me. I mean, I have friends who are more emotional than others, and that's cool, but I can't deal with that in person. (A friend of mine once had a panic attack right next to me in the backseat of a car, while our other two friends were in the front seat getting us lost. I have to confess, I did badly. emotions make me panicky. I was probably 5 mph slower from bailing from the car. we're all still friends, and said friend has actually helped me be a lot more educated on how to help people handle panic attacks so that never happens again...but man. I was scared for her and pissed at my friends, and i had no clue.) But since I function way better with texts, emails, and tumblr, I am actually doing way better at helping other people and also helping myself. Huh. Things I wish I knew way back in high school.