idk where this goes

Discussion in 'General Advice' started by Amazingly Anon, Feb 29, 2016.

  1. i'm stupid, and depressed. i'm waiting to find out if the government will give me money for food, but right now i'm low on funds, to the point where well. i'm down to less than a week's worth of food.

    and i know everyone says go to a food bank, but i'm out of money to take the bus anywhere

    i'm sad, and tired, and hungry. because brain goes "ok low food so just. stop eating." because that's always helpful.

    i'm too much of a trashlord to job, and who knows if or how long it would take to get government assistance

    i hate this
  2. i just hate that i'm so low spoons that i can't DO anything

    the people i live with won't even talk to me anymore and i'm just so alone now

    i can't live like this and it's killing me
  3. it makes me wish i was dead. to be like this. i can't do this
  4. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    well that's shitty of them. :/

    are they unwilling to help try to feed you? is there anyone you could ask to do a foodbank run for you? Would a donation drive thing be feasible?

    other than that... i guess just witnessed. that sounds like a shit place to be.
  5. i don't have anyone who could run to one for me

    i could do a donation drive but i'm invisible and no one gives a fuck about some stupid internet nobody
  6. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    well, worst case scenario you end up where you are right now, so what's the harm?
    and i could chip in some money, at least.
  7. feels like begging, and begging for money is bad, no matter what the situation
  8. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    nah fuck that noise, no it's not.
    you need help, other people may have the capability to help without serious consequences to themselves and it's not like anyone's being coerced, i see no problems here.
  9. yeah but also this is a dumb subaccount because i'm an asshole and can't let everyone know how shitty i am


    i don't even know how to actually ask for help anymore. people have already given me so much and now i'm just. still failing
  10. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    i really doubt you are either an asshole or shitty.
    and like. if you're still failing, you still need help, yeah? maybe not just in terms of money, like getting roommates that will fucking talk to you, or therapy or whatever, but let's focus on getting food money for now, at least until you hear back on food stamps (i assume?)

    would a script to run through for asking for help help?
  11. i don't know

    i just don't know what i'm doing anymore
  12. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    that's alright.

    i'm gonna go to sleep now, but i'll try to get back to you with a script tomorrow just in case, if someone else hasn't by then
  13. it's ok. it doesn't really matter
  14. Asherinn

    Asherinn A Person, Probably

    There's nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it. That doesn't make you a shitty person.
  15. feels like it does. my whole life i've needed help because i can't even take care of myself. i finally get out on my own, and i fail so hard. my parents were right about me being a loser
  16. Asherinn

    Asherinn A Person, Probably

    Yeah, I get that... your parents don't get to tell you what you are though. I know it's hard to unlearn if that's what they've been telling you, but it's bullshit.
  17. well they don't seem to be wrong a lot of times. i always suck and fail and they get proved right so often
  18. smallgayghoul

    smallgayghoul Certified Furry Trash

    You're not a loser no matter how much you fail or what your parents have said about you. And you don't need to feel ashamed or bad or whatever about needing help, because there's nothing wrong with needing help, even if society wants us to think it's the Worst Thing Ever.

    I agree with Wiwaxia, try a donation drive or something? I know it sucks to feel like you're begging, trust me, but you don't deserve to be in such a shitty situation, no one does.

    I wish I had more advice, but stay strong, and I hope you find out about the government assistance soon.
  19. Wiwaxia

    Wiwaxia problematic taxon

    that sounds like it matters to me.

    well that's a douchebag thing to say to your own damn child. :/
    I dunno the details of your situation, of course, but my gut guess would be that they offered you no or insufficient help and then blamed you for failing when you didn't have enough help and support to succeed.

    I mean like. I sure as hell can't take care of myself. When I'm at school I'm p much dependent on the campus food services for food because if i had to try to feed myself, I... wouldn't, in all likelihood. Or not nearly enough, anyways. When I'm at home I'm dependent on my family to remind me to eat, if not to actually cook the damn food for me. Hell, I'm practically dependent on asking people here to tell me to eat to actually go to the cafeteria to eat food that I didn't even have to cook. I so do not have the spoons or knowledge to rent a place to stay other than home or school dorms right now. I am p fucking skeptical of my ability to work at this moment, let alone work on top of school. I don't like that these things are the case, but I'm never going to get to a place where I can do them on my own without people taking care of me in the interim and helping me learn how to do the fucking things. (And honestly, I'm probably never going to able to survive entirely without help, but oh well. That's the way it is, and I'll pay it back and/or forward to the extent that I can.)
    Literally the only reason I'm not where you are right now is financial (well, and other kinds of) support from my family, and if your family and roommates are unwilling or unable to provide you that support, then you should look for it elsewhere.

    Obviously asking for help is super, super hard for you, and I don't want to disrespect that, and I obviously can't change that with some offhand profanity-laden rant.
    But according to your own posts here, your situation right now is clearly intolerable and you are unable to get out of it on your own, so you do need help. I think your best option really is to just bite the bullet and ask.

    If you're too uncomfortable asking for help under your standard identity here or elsewhere, you could probably just throw up a thread like "need food money, please donate if you can" here under this subaccount. Probably won't get you as much as a dedicated donation campaign, but it'll be more than nothing. Or I can try to type up a more in-depth donationpost so you can just swap in relevant information, copy-paste it and look away and hit post just so it's there without you having to spend a lot of time and effort pushing your face into the cheese-grater of asking for help.
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  20. bluh. just. afraid parents would also find out and message me like "how could you do that, how could you beg strangers for money"

    everything kinda sucks and I just woke up and just feeling kind of garbage and tired. i feel like if i ever talk about this with my main identity, people would be irritated because this is the kind of thing i whine about every day and everyone is so tired of hearing me whine about it. i just. i don't know. i know i should probably try to get a donation drive or something but at the same time??? i'm not popular in fandom, any fandom, and therefore am super fucking invisible.

    i don't even know how to ask for help anymore because i'm so tired and sad and just ugh
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