Old school gaming, really old school instrumentation, like drums and birds SO, ABOUT A YEAR AGO, I picked up a second job in order to support my wife, who had a breakdown approx. one month after our marriage and became suicidally depressed, my radical dudes. She couldn't keep working because it was too tough on her, my beautiful people. I had been a full time waitress before; after that I became a full and a half time waitress and barista. It was really unpleasant, my friends! During that time I did not computer, I did not read book, truly, comrades, I barely even did witchcraft. Just Beltaine and Samhain and screaming at the moon. I had only time for working and gay, and occasionally drawing. This really sucked. I thought it would be a temporary measure but it was not, good people. I had two jobs most of the year and it was awful. Like, I don't have a cutesy qualifier making it sound better than it was, it was awful. Things absolutely sucked. While I fucking ground myself down to afford my house it filled up with a bug infestation and became unlivable. I hit a wall a few months ago and made the choice that wife and I will be moving in with my parents for a while and searching for jobs around them, in what should be a much, much better job market. In the meanwhile, I've been working one job, getting to clean my house, and ~writing fucked up gay fanfiction~ again. Am hopeful, but very scared, my dear ones. In my heart I don't really feel like I'll ever get a good job but I know how I'll feel if I don't try. At any point in the year I've been gone I was playing at least one Suikoden game and am 150,000 words deep into a long form gay Suikoden I fanfiction. That's just where I'm at right now. If anyone wants to talk about Suikoden, I'm SO fucking ready. Me and my dubcon trippy dream sequences are deeply and painfully ready. My dudes. I don't know if or when I'll ever post that thing. It's deeply divorced from its source material in tone and characterization by now and I just keep diving deeper and deeper into a hole that only leads to underage Tir/Luc and broken bones.