kintsugi IN SPACE

In real life, I don't have wings. The massive amount of independently-mobile hair was more accurate than you'd think up until a couple days ago, though. My mother finally talked me into getting a haircut- my head feels naked... (which is ridiculous, since it's still pretty long, but I miss the 'skipped out on the barber's appointment for a couple years running' lion's mane deal I had going before).

 

mine's based on me and definitely has my spergs-about-norm-the-genie thing going on, but is a fairy ('cause i was basically a half-fairy otherkin when i was a young kid).
(also, maybe considering a thing about my 'sona kinda losing touch with their powers on tumblropolis and being able to use them sometimes now but not consistently or very well. not a thing that literally happened to me or anything but nonetheless, very based on me right now.)
and i reckon it has all my food hang-ups, since it wouldn't feel anything like me without them. and it has my name, gillian.
so yeah... mine is kinda "me but exaggerated"

 

Pretty sure I am not a big squishy space elf alien thing with a pocket universe in my mouth. Honestly the character is just like a mascot for me, more than me in space.

 

I hadn't assumed that people were playing characters who looked like them, but characters who shared their personalities, ya dig?

 

We're just teasing. I honestly don't know, because I can't really replicate my own personality in my self insert characters? They tend to evolve into their own person.

 

I'm nothing like Calcite even if he shapeshifted into my body!

 

Void is not really my personality either, they're like me times ten. Very ridiculous.

 

Fun fact, I am actually a robot with an uncertain sense of humor.

01101100 01101111 01101100

 

10 PRINT "ha"
20 GOTO 10

 

... oh also I eat other things than sweets, coffee and raw meat.
I am known to occassionally also eat raw fish which Ivy would just wrinkle their tiny cute nose at.

 

Em is both sorta me, and sorta not?
Like, I'm not a cute semi-dead puppy child with a horde of kinda telepathic lab mice. All of whom (person and mice) ran away from a mad science lab.
But, a lot of their personality is me, exaggerated? sorta?

 

I can't really play 1:1 versions of myself even in fantasylands. Laz is a lot LIKE me, mostly focusing on stuff I never really play with. I play with my hypervigilance and stamped-down aggression a lot, but not my conflict-avoidance-to-the-point-of-doormat issues or my lack of a cohesive identity (and some of my 'inherited' identity). It's just bumped up to 11 to make it an interesting set of traits to play with. In most of the stuff I play a character like Laz would get trampled. It wouldn't be DOOMED, but there would be a lot of on-screen hurt before any kind of recovery. Which. Is just sad for this kind of character, so it doesn't go in those worlds. Works for my bitter bitches just trying to survive b/c for me there's no path to healing from the shit that makes you that way that doesn't hurt a whole lot. But Laz's issues- exaggerations of issues that we share- can be helped by friends and shenanigans and people who respect its boundaries.

So Laz is a part of me shaved off, exaggerated, and then wrapped in worldbuilding I thought was neat. I'd consider it a self-insert because we share names (Lazarae is not my real name, but it is a huge part of my identity) but not a blatant one.

(Whooops rant. I just kinda brainsplatted because I was thinking about whether or not it was a self-insert any more than my other main characters. I always add something of me to main characters as a shortcut to getting in their head + giving them one of my Huge Issues as a major flaw helps me poke at it from a safe distance and how much of that in one character it takes to turn them from 'comfortably familiar' to 'self-insert' was fun to think about.

TBH Laz-sona only hits two of my mental checklist: shared names and more than a certain amount of shared issues. But it's clear on sharing a majority of intrinsic/core beliefs and values/morals, behaving as I would in most situations, and resembling me/an idealized me. So I consider it 'barely' because the name thing is weighted more. Also there is some 'idealized me' because for some reason my mental-me has had VERY red hair since I was 7 despite all physical evidence to the contrary BUT I have a ton of varying-shades-of-redhead characters because it's also a really fun spectrum to play with the other traits against. And depending on clothes/lighting/blood pressure my eyes sometimes look gold which is a fact I'm VERY vain of. But Laz's are more demon-piss-yellow and to do with the whole incu-succubus shtick than resemblance to me. They're nicer than red and green just didn't seem to fit right with it.)

Shit I'm doing it again I'll stop now.)

 

don't worry, at least I love seeing longwinded rambles about characters!

 

I'm with Ivy, longwinded rambles are cool!

 

I wish i could bullshit a plot way for Ivy to get that pretty peacock alpha dragon as a pet, but for reasons of suspension of disbelief I deliberately set that up as pretty much impossible.
... why did I make my own imaginary space animals so cool cries.

 

hmm...
accidental mad science?

 

holy shit do we even have anyone who would be doing mad science bullshit that could end up replicating/teleportging a life animal that is actually pretty dangerous?

 

um. UM.
ANYONE HERE WANNA DO DANGEROUS MAD SCIENCE???? OPEN CALL, GUYS

 

Holy shit this would be really hilarious
especially because Ivy will just treat the three meters long acid spitting winged noodle as if it was a dog and whack it on the snout with a newspaper
I hope the colony survives Ivy getting this pet