yeap. here it is. so i can stop bitching in irrelevant threads. ówò my main account is @blur . this is just my vent side account so i dont clutter my main with my constant self hatred and daily suicidal tendencies. cw for uhh uncensored slurs (that i Can reclaim) and a lot of suicide stuff. vaguing, mostly. and talk of violence. i inhereted some destructive tendencies from my dad.
todays log: wasnt too bad, actually. i got a 70% on my geometry test, which is honestky the best i can do. but the only person i sit with at lunch wasnt here today. the freshman who sit at my table were calling each other 'faggot' and i wanted to smack them in the mouths. also, my other friends kind of ignored me after i went to see the theatre production that they were on. all in all, 7/10 day. not my worst.
cw for underage shit. Spoiler oh yeah. i just remembered that one adult person i used to talk to a couple years ago. since i didnt share my age with anyone and i didnt know kids being with adults is illegal and fucking awful we were kind of dating. he would send me sexual videos of himself and i didnt stop him because i didnt know any better. yay for remembering repressed memories.
Spoiler it was t just an accident. he was my friend. havent talked to him since that year though. im glad about that too.
cw tmi Spoiler i think i keep letting people keep taking advantage of me because of my obvious hypersexuality. my friend has the same problem lmao
it was a .. bad day. and my chronic pains are back for another round of "lets bring extreme unbearable pain to your dominant arm just for fun"
