mostly roving, partly stars

Peeled myself out of hibernation long enough to throw together a fresh bowl of amasu-zuke, because I deserve nice foods even though I'm a slug. Might just eat that + venison summer sausage for dinner once kai's home, we'll see how she's feeling.

 

I ate many good veg, and am. Now back to being a vaguely sad blanket lump.

I hope resting today helped, but idk.

 

At least my extended-anniversary-event of rereading bookmarked Homestuck fic is well timed to my energy levels? (also giving me a chance to sort&prune, which is good bc I have a ridiculous number of bookmarks)

 

Well, I was going to shower, but now I'm covered in cats.

 

...actually, it turns out my sis just started the dishwasher! So it turns out the kittyboys were protecting me from miserable water pressure & temp. Good to know!

 

What good kitties!!

 

I knit three repeats of edging, I posted on chyw social media, I've got yarn simmering, and I'm sitting down to spin. It's the first day this week that I've managed the energy/executive functioning for all of those and I am so. relieved.

 

today's mood

 

You didn't fuck up, Migraine Buddy. I did.

 

Tomorrow:

• Laundry
• Another rua tweak
• Tidying (incl put away clean clothes)
• Menu plan & update grocery ticker
• Message E back
• Return or renew library books

 

Goooooob morning! (pay no attention to the fact that it's almost 2pm). I've messaged E, I've decided to push laundry to tomorrow, I renewed my library books online, and I've had my morning coffee & bacon. Time to get dressed and get the dyepot going!

 

Wool noodles

 

Today

• Get up earlier (now doesn't count, I'm staying in bed & might doze until alarm)
• Errands
  • Joanns: yellow & brown dye bases
  • South Meijer: refer to keep note
• Laundry
• (one more rua proof?)
• Daily spinning
• Shawl edging
• Gloves progress
• Sweater body
• Social media

 

I find myself getting caught in a self-consciousness loop about my life seeming boring to the friends and family adjacent to it - I'm deeply engaged and having fun, but a combination of learned "no one really wants to hear you infodump," my struggle to explain what excites me without getting into incomprehensible jargon, and my awareness of how useless the average modern person thinks fiber arts are... I'm just really glad for the internet. And for patient IRL friends who genuinely are interested.

 

I think fiber arts are rad and so are your Interests!! What matters is that you’re happy and fulfilled. <3

(Also I LOVE being infodumped at so feel free to infodump in my direction!! :D)

 

Thank you Acey!

I tend to browse Ravelry and/or Instagram when I can't sleep (like earlier this morning) & just get so jazzed about my projects ... And then get anxious about whether or not I'm "good enough" bc that is the one true eternal brain bug.

Today I am shopping for more dye stocks, proofing a dye recipe (hopefully getting a perfect final proof!), and making progress on knits and spins. I'm trying to power through the body of a sweater commission so I can cast on a new sweater. And because I'm nuts I have five active spinning projects - two spins for devotional shawls, one spin for a scarf for mom, one spin of gift fiber that I will probably make into a hat, and the experimental lace spin on my Russian spindle. It's a lot of thing!

 

Laying in bed, lights off, blankets all askew to stay cool & Kai's arm draped on my waist... I hear a tiny snoring noise start up behind me, and my heart just melts because I love her so much (but telling her that right now would defeat the point of me being happy she's relaxed enough to fall right asleep)

Twelve years ago (may 1st, 2007) was when we confessed being in love with each other. Twelve years.

 

~blushu~

☆*✲ﾟ*｡(((´♡‿♡`+)))｡*ﾟ✲*☆

 

Welp, I did the thing, and after over a week of dithering since the announcement, went ahead and sent that email to my brother with links to pregnancy/parenting resources. He called me & immediately after the announcement asked for recommendations for care providers in the area & resources I had, it's not weird, and yet. Anxiety. :/

 

To do tomorrow:

• Dye rua
• Social media post
• Call Elicia
• Pet cats
• Date ?