i have a lot of anxiety right now and at the moment its bad enough to be affecting my health and my memory and sleep and food intake blah blah blah so yesterday i had the worst attack ive had in over a year and took the day off school to recuperate mom told me im stuck in the "i cants" and thats my problem what the fuck
Here's the thing: you may be "I can't" because you literally cannot do the thing. It's actually healthy to have those boundaries and say "no, I can't do that." Having boundaries and knowing your limits is kind of the opposite of a problem, so your mom can fuck off. I'm glad you took a day off.
I am pretty sure that is not actually the problem. I mean, it is a problem that can exist, and that happens, but... Doesn't seem a good fit here.