Spoiler Spoiler Spoiler no one will ever want to fuck me ever again, even if they did i'd probably be too self conscious to fuck, and in the meantime arousal is still a thing and i'm practically anorgasmic solo please kill me
fact: no one has ever invited me to a discord something (are they called servers? rooms? chats? ????) thought: no one likes you enough to want to talk to you feeling: Bad
The Strider focused discord is a "message this person and get access that way" thing, not a thing you need to be invited to. I can't remember who it was to message, but there was a reblog floating around about it. I think it's just that you don't follow people on tumblr so stuff falls through the cracks. They just don't want the discord spammed by anti's.
nah i mean i've never been invited to any, period, it just. finally sunk in that people were talking about me behind my back i guess, even if it was positive
Kintsugi doesn't do much on discord unless you are involved in the rps? I'm a little hazy on this, but most of the action happens on skype.
psst, pixels, here is an invite to the kintsugi discord. you were always welcome, but if you feel like you need a specific invitation to join, this is it.
mm i'm out of medication mmmmmmmmm even though i called it in this morning and tried to pick it up yesterday mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
:c You deserve to be able to see. Poor eyesight is the kind of thing that causes head aches and tiredness, so not going is counter productive.
Spoiler: transcript mom: Or you could wait a couple of months when you have a job and money and insurance (might cost 0$ to wait) me: Old job didn't cover vision, I don't think, and dental was opt-in. Also, two and a half years. mom: I'd just hate to see (lol) you spend money and then find out if you had just waited.... government jobs might cover? i literally haven't had an eye exam in two and a half years, i'm supposed to have them optimally every six months to a year because my vision has degenerated so fast since i was a child. i'm having trouble seeing street signs again. it's only $60 for me to get an eye exam and $95 for warby parker frames+lenses i can order online. but no, i'm supposed to wait for no insurance to cover this ever. it's the same difference. it's specialist copay and it would have been just as expensive on insurance. problem: i don't exactly have $155. i can maybe squeeze out $60 this month for the exam if i really cut back on groceries and eat everything in my freezer. but i like... can't see, again. just like when i went in for my last exam in may 2014.
I'm not much good for words now for now, but I helped! ★⌒ヽ( ͡° ε ͡°) (proof: i just typed 'i'm not much goods now' and almost posted before i caught myself) (eta: and i've hit zenni for cheap glasses before, may not work depending on your prescription, but I've gotten pairs I love for <$20)
so i've kind of gotten onto medication roulette right now and i'm being fucked simultaneously in the mouth and in the asshole. right now i have too much anxiety to really socialize with online people which sucks but i gotta do me. but long story short i will be getting off the meds that just mildly help my anxiety and severely limit my functionality re: dizziness. i tried to do this three weeks ago and it ended in screaming anxiety attacks and my mommy had to come help me. psych and i have a better plan this time but it might still be really bad. i'm anxious about it. so i'm just gonna play animal crossing and ac:nl and pretend like kintsugi and tumblr and skype and slack and discord don't exist because i just can't fucking do it right now. dealing with social anxiety just makes all the other anxiety spike too.
Good luck, I really hope that works out for you, and maybe reduced dizziness will make eye problems less awful to deal with too. Have lots of fun with the vidya games, take care of yourself, and I hope you'll be doing better soon.
so i might have ehlers danlos syndrome but 1) i have to go to a doc to be diagnosed and doctors are really bad at listening to lady shaped people with complaints of general pain and/or autoimmune issues 2) i'm terrified i'm not back but husband says i should come back because i had friends here and i need friends again i'm just ready to cry because eds really describes my known issues really well but there's no cure and eventually i'll be relegated to orthotics, then aides, then likely wheelchair bound. i've already had a nightmare this week that i was diagnosed. if i have one specific subtype i have a lifespan estimate of only 45 and i'm just so. fucking. tired all the time and i just want to know what's wrong with me
