I think this goes here and not in brains. Not entirely sure. I am currently in college. Over Christmas break, I visited my mom's house. During that time, I went to see a psychiatrist since A) I wanted to see if I had ADHD and if so get medication so I could stop falling behind in my classes and B) it was killing me to not have an official BPD diagnosis. The psychiatrist diagnosed me with both and I tried a couple of stimulants, neither of which worked. I went home to my dorm with an antidepressant to try just in case the real problem behind my motivation wasn't ADHD. I started falling behind again a couple weeks ago, and therefore started taking the antidepressant, which so far hasn't worked, but I know these things take time to try out. I want to hook up with a psychiatrist over here sooner rather than later. The first place I tried, which was in walking distance, was booked for a month. They referred me to the place I'm having problems with. I first filled out a little questionnaire with ADHD-related questions. Then I went in to see the first woman. I told her my other psychiatrist had already diagnosed me with ADHD and BPD. She asked me how that had happened and I told her the previous psych had asked me a bunch of questions and I had answered them. This wasn't sufficient to her, and pretty quickly she started talking about how I probably have bipolar instead. I started to get angry. She told me it seemed like I wanted a BPD diagnosis. I yelled that of course I do, it explains all my behavior! She told me to leave. I begged her to let me stay because I know I need ADHD meds. She let me stay, but said I couldn't do it again, which makes me think she believes I choose when I want to yell at people, which isn't the case. The next lady I talked to asked me a series of questions for I think insurance purposes. At one point, she asked me how I found out about BPD. Hesitating and nervous, I slowly told her that I had looked up my experiences and BPD came up as a result. "So you self-diagnosed on the internet," she said. Maybe I am imagining it, but I think there was some dismissal in her tone? I think I might have imagined it because those are words I expect to be dismissive. I freaked out a bit and started frantically apologizing and I put a nearby pillow in front of my face. That was when I am sure she got dismissive. I forget the exact words, but they were something like "Oh, stop. You can't pull that with me." Then she asked me to leave as well. I calmed down after a few seconds and she let me stay. For both psychiatrists, the fear of being kicked out kind of put the other emotions on hold, which apparently to both of them looked like I was acting? She continued questioning me. Since I mentioned that I came by taxi from a sort of far away city, she wrote down the names of a few more nearby psychiatrists. She warned me, though, that none of them would put up with me screaming or the kind of behavior I showed her. She said if I tried that on any of them, they would show me the door I told her it wasn't intentional, but she said because I was able to calm down, it was. I told her I know they shouldn't put up with me because I am a bullshit factory, which she ignored. Since then, whenever I think about what she said, it causes me some intense negative emotions along the lines of "nobody will ever put up with me, not even the people who deal with brain problems for a living." Tomorrow I might be going in for a full evaluation. When I posted some tidbits of what happened in the status area, a bunch of people told me to drop her. What should I do? I lost the bill where the first psychiatrist had ADHD and BPD listed, and she hasn't replied to my e-mail asking her to provide evidence for student disability of her diagnoses. These people said they would contact student disability directly after the evaluation, and I sure would like to have fancy diagnosis papers showing BPD and ADHD instead of just a bill, which I think they implied they would give me. Should I go take the evaluation and then drop this place or should I just drop this place and get the evaluation elsewhere? Or am I blowing things out of proportion and the psychiatrists there are right?