Suggestion I should call police set off my phobia

I can use 7cupsoftea or something if I need to. I'm feeling okayish now.

 

Okay, maybe have some tea or something if you start feeling really bad again? I dunno of you like tea, but that works for me. Also sugar works for me because ???

Edit for missing word

 

7cupsoftea is a support website.

 

Oh yeah, sorry if I wasn't clear, I meant like also if you like tea and are upset to maybe drink some. I got that the thing was a website, sorry.

 

Freaking out again because a cop car drove into my street, parked for a while near my apartment block without the cops, then drove away when I got near to it. That implies they weren't there for me but I'm going to be scared all day.

 

Are you ok? Do you need to talk?

 

Yeah, I'm better. They left as soon as I got near, so I rationally was pretty sure they were just patrolling, but I panicked in case they came back. Went out to dinner with family, nervous all through it :( They didn't come back, so my panic about being arrested for illegal porn in front of my parents didn't come to fruition. I haven't even seen any for a long time, except for written stuff which under the law was perfectly fine last I checked, but I got scared the law had changed and I hadn't heard.

 

Okay, let us know if you get freaked out again. Many positive feelings sent your way.

 

I just feel bad :( I feel dirty and disobedient and like if I was somehow a better person I wouldn't even be on RP or art sites where I could potentially run into anything gross so this wouldn't have ever been a problem.

 

That would be impossible, I think. The art world is full of art that is dubious in the morality department. You aren't a bad person.

 

I don't know what they'd say to my parents if I did get taken in :(

 

Thankfully I don't think that is going to happen. They really can't take you for just happening on something.

 

I'm probably a much worse person, don't worry about it :)

but seriously I don't think anything will happen. but you know that already and it doesn't help. IDK