how often do u think he replays that memory in full regretful HD while trying 2 recharge. i say once a year minimum.
followed by "You'd leave Cybertron? What about me?" "...I assumed you'd come with me." TERRIBLE JUST TERRIBLE
SO MANY REGRETS! Oh my gosh, and picking apart every moment of that flashback period, trying to figure out where things went wrong and where it could have been fixed-- because Chromedome said that things were colder between them after Prowl ditched before the big heist, but Prowl ditched because he's got just that much of a lawkeeper-flavored stick up his ass, and even if he wouldn't help them do the crime, ignoring the crime and making Orion pull Chromedome away from it was the best he could do. And Chromedome saw that as a betrayal, but even if it wasn't for JUSTICE, Prowl is really, really good at shifting responsibility away from himself and making excuses for his actions. So especially in a grey area like that he wouldn't have blamed himself (except maybe very quietly when he's alone at night and the berth is so empty and he wishes there was someone there he could just... talk to). So it's Orion's fault. Or what if the point of no return was later, in the Institute? What if it was Trepan's fault? What if Trepan poisoned it all? Or, Brainstorm is irresponsible as hell and Chromedome met him in the Institute and they're practically amica endurae-- Did Brainstorm tell him he should leave me? Or even during the heist, why didn't Ratchet do the responsible thing and talk Orion out of it in the first place? He's a responsible mech, he should have known better. Or the senator. If he'd arranged things better and hadn't gotten himself captured like an idiot, this whole thing would have gone fine and everything could have gone back to normal between us. Or even the outliers! If they'd been better at their jobs, there were so many ways for this to go more smoothly! And underneath it all, the quiet, sullen, aching blaming of Chromedome, because if he had just trusted me, if he'd just listened, if he just hadn't stopped loving me, we could have found some way to make it through this together.
Okay but. In the period where everyone thinks the Lost Light blew up and everyone on it is dead and everyone is blaming Prowl, not to his face but he knows, and he knows he put people on the ship to keep an eye on things but he'd never hurt his friends (he'd never hurt Chromedome, even if Chromedome is hurting Prowl with his ridiculous flings)... ...how much do you think that stress and the stress of not showing it impacted his unwise series of decisions after?
this is good I really, really like this a lot Spoiler: exrid/mtmte through dark cybertron And this is on top of the brain control mess too, where it's not him doing the bad things, but everyone thinks he is, and he's horrified to realize what kind of stuff even his closest friends will believe about him. And then when he finds out Chromedome isn't dead, it's when he's still hurting from everything else, and he's realized that Chromedome nonconsensually mnemosurgery'd him, and left the hole that the mind control was able to exploit in the first place. Plus at that point, Rewind is dead and he and Chromedome are seeing each other for the first time in millions of years without that hanging over their heads, (and maybe, just maybe, there's a chance for them to start over a little, never mind that Prowl is pissed at him), but Chromedome still won't give him any credit for being a nice guy and the first conversation they have devolves immediately into Chromedome pitching him off a cliff. Like... wow, when I really consider it, I'm not surprised Prowl fell apart as badly as he did. I don't agree with Optimus on many things, but I definitely agree with him on Prowl being an open wound. Just, DANG. Sabbatical time. Take a long, long, vacation, baby. Please.
Yeah like, idk why they're not more explicit about Prowl and Chromedome's relationship because it enhances literally everything.
Like months ago I pegged prowl as someone who had probably been in a state of nervous breakdown for centuries at the least and nothing has caused me to revise this. Especially the Titans Return stuff.
Spoiler: Titans Return Speaking of, Prowl mentions being brainwashed and being shadowplayed in Titans Return. We all know he was brainwashed/mind controlled in the stuff leading up to Dark Cybertron, but do we know when he's been shadowplayed? Was he referring to Chromedome there or to something earlier?
Agreeeeeeeeed. And there was something about the mania-like stuff in 56 that really got me in the heart. I already wanted him to take a break, but that really, really worried about all him reaching a legit snapping point. And considering all the shit we've seen out of him in the normal course of the comic, I think that a for-serious break from him would just... It would be hard to read. Spoiler: titans return I assumed this was Chromedome! The memory-altering thing seemed like the only canon event we saw that matched up to that, and it's such a big Event that it seems like it would be clumsy writing for that to have been the first mention of it Oh hey, I just remembered. JRO said at some point we're going to see Chromedome and Rewind's proposal. Iiiiiiiiiiiif Prowl joins the party bus, I wonder if he could be a catalyst for that flashback? There's some still some serious Unresolved Shit between those three, and it seems like an intense emotional moment to pull into the plot if someone's writing the three of them together.
The Discourse and You Aren't Allowed to Ship this Because I don't like This and Don't Tell Teenagers They Are Doing Something Wrong The Poor Dears has come to the Transformers fandom and my dash. Over Prowl/Fort Max. Help me.
*busts through wall like the kool-aid man* HEY GUYS, GUESS WHO FINALLY DID THE THING 36k of Prowl/Megatron problematic nsfw dehumanization funtimes. I accidentally an OC and also a whole characterization for Momus. I'm so tired. I am very pleased with myself. I am very, very pleased that this is finished and I can move on with all the other parts of my life I've been aggressively neglecting. I am so tired. But yes, mostly I'm very pleased with myself :3c
Any chance of links? Totally understand if you want to leave people out of this, but I am very curious, especially since I thought tf fandom was way more chill about this kind of thing. also to help nudge me into spitewriting more prowl/fort max, which you must agree is a very noble motivation