Vent that T is hot (nsfw at times)

*ascends to the astral realm* welcome to the reason mimikyu always wears its cloth.

i'm so fuckin brainsick lmao. i love having executive dysfunction at a prestigious university and barely maintaining the minimum GPA to stay in my major. feels good man.

what i'm mostly upset about right now though is that testosterone is turning my face into a pizza. i woke up today having flashbacks to middle school, the last time my acne was that bad. so far testosterone seems like everything I don't want and almost nothing I do, but it's only been 5 months, I need to give it more time to work, at least a year or two. i'm 19 but i feel like a 14 year old boy and i kind of look like one too. i'm just crossing my fingers that i'll look like an adult by the time i'm applying for jobs in two years...

 

I'm 30+ and still don't look like an adult.
(since I don't always act like one, that can be a good thing)

 

are you taking testosterone, or do you just not look like an adult?

 

Just not look like an adult. Turner Syndrome, and decline HRT so body is stuck at prepubescent.

 

ah. it's just that not passing triggers my dysphoria and looking more like an adult will help that, hopefully. i'm also 5'2" and pretty chunky, so.

 

youre very handsome

 

bab pls >///< don't make me do a public display of affection in my vent thread

 

but i looooooove you<3

(i will stay out of here if you would like)

 

I love you too <3

feel free to stay, but idk if it'll be redundant cause i already tell you basically everything anyway. you've seen me naked multiple times so.

 

Wednesdays are hell, class from 10:10 to 5:30, T-shot, dinner, then drumline practice and I fucking should have my choreography memorized by now but I don't!!!! first competition in less than two weeks!!!!!!!!!

 

Spoiler

my position still stands that a forum for mentally ill/disordered/disabled people should not be run in its entirety by the same

 

Spoiler: nsfw

i keep catching a whiff of my own pussy stank. I should shower tonight.

 

You have my pizzaface sympathies. I've got an appointment with a dermatologist to get this taken care of.

 

it's not bad enough to warrant a dermatologist, yet...but hopefully you get it sorted!

 

Yeah, my skin never quite recovered from puberty 1.0, so I'm actually relieved that it's finally been deemed dermatologist-worthy.

Anyway, I hope yours starts to clear up soon!

 

I can't stop picking at my face :/

also asthma is so much fun guys

 

i want to be dead but i don't wanna die
you feel me?

 

why can i never go to bed on time? two words, starting with an e and a d
erectile dysfunction? nah that doesn't sound right, i'm a healthy young man
something about one of the three branches of government?

/sarcasm

 

the weather is so nice out today??? i feel so fucking happy and productive???

 

HARD SAME