Vent that T is hot (nsfw at times)

hghghg court hearing tomorrow to change my legal name so i should really just go to bed rn

also please somebody buy my dragons off of me i need to make rooooommm

 

good luck!

 

god i should've just told my mom to leave my fridge alone but i wasn't really paying attention and she turned the temp to "max" and now i have to thaw out all my goddamn food and see if it's salvageable

 

i fractured my growth plate in 6th grade, and yesterday i did a ton of color guard shit without stretching properly and i think i mightve sprained it. i have it in an ace bandage and on ice, any advice??

 

moving back in sucks cause class starts tomorrow and i don't have the spoons to finish unpacking

 

oh fuck why does doing laundry always make my brain catapult out of my head and away from things i should be doing

 

you know i planned on getting things done before my parents called but i guess that isn't happening lol

 

also like, there is So Many going on and my brain is kind of just shutting down

 

i really don't want to see my dad tomorrow

also why does someone not joining the color guard here feel like such a personal moral failing

 

testosterone shits + period shits = lots of time on the toilet

 

I've been on T for almost a year now WHY HASNT MY PERIOD STOPPED YET

 

That sounds worrisome, can you talk to an endocrinologist about it? or other physician?

(sorry if unwanted/not useful/something you've already done)

 

i'm gonna try to see my endo soon now that i'm back at school, I just have to make time for it. thank you

 

I hate my period. i just feel so disgusting

 

wow i did not do fuckall today

i mean, i did some stuff, but i feel so far behind even though i'm not
and my period is making me dysphoric (which it hasn't done the last couple times wtf), and my brain isn't parsing me as male like it normally does, which is giving me some genderweird feels

 

in other news i went to the farmers market yesterday and got many goods:
-3 honey sticks in varying flavors
-6 apples of breeds i'd never heard of before
-cotton candy grapes (these things are fuckin weird they legit taste like cotton candy)
-mexican gherkins, which are like grape sized cucumbers
-a cider donut
-actual cotton candy made from maple syrup

 

Spoiler: controversial opinions

I understand trans people wanting some positivity and validation, but that shit should stop when it contradicts material reality. you can't be a "gay trans man" if you don't have dysphoria, don't transition, and make no effort to change your appearance/behaviors. honey, no gay man is gonna want to fuck you if you look like every other cis woman out there. hell, I pass 100% of the time and I still understand gay men don't wanna fuck me cause i'm female. gay cis men don't like pussy.

 

also my endo said to up my dose by 10mg...hopefully that does the trick

 

my beard is coming in nicely, i can only hope it doesn't turn into pube hair beard...u know, when it's all curly and wiry?

do you have to shampoo beards?

 

ugh i have to shower tonight but i'm really Not In The Moodtm and i don't wanna go to bed yet because that means i'm that much closer to waking up tomorrow