The Witch Of Babbling (blog thread)

I redid the purpley pink but this time i dilluted it on some white cream so it's not as saturated with color because i kinda liked one of the middle stages that my color got last fade! it was almost baby pink already but i wash it wrong and the top layer was way too faded and uneven for my taste and it was annoying me. I was trying to fade it completely so i could put a teal green next, but i guess i'll stay in the magenta family for a while :'^y

 

i have to go get groceries and i also have to study for a test tomorrow and i have the kind of headache where things start spinning randomly

 

me, every single time: *sees the words methyl violet in a histology textbook* THAT'S WHAT I USED TO USE TO DYE MY HAIR!!

 

please dont take my goth card away from me but. carly rae jepsen is so good.

 

This shit still makes me SO PUMPED to do BASICALLY ANYTHING

 

"and my lights stay up, but your city sleeps" is such a good metaphor evocative of a very specific kind of loneliness and i LOVE IT carly rae jepsen is A MILLENIAL GENIUS, an ICON,

 

I wish I could find a way to work one of her songs into my Cullen/Idrilla fst because I just. Love her.

 

I lost my driver's license (and bank card) somewhere either inside the house or on the uber back home and I'm just. Slight fuckt

 

I changed her hair...... again

 

the truth is.... i can't fucking get her look right. i have about six versions of Lissie on Inquisition because she just refuses to look how i want her to

 

I SO dont wanna go to therapy today but I Gotta

Im just so tireeeeedd

 

What i should do: study biochemistry
What I need to do: go to therapy so I dont get Double Depressed again
What i want to do: stay in bed, covered in cheetos, groaning

 

Also my mom is on a plane to Vegas right now and I am, of course, worried sick that something is going to happen to her and probably nine hours away from her arrival in Panama city

 

Today after two years of using the expression "cotton brain" to refer to... well, the sensation of having a lot of cotton in my brain, I used the expression "steel wool brain" to describe how I've been feeling and that was the last straw for my psychologist. And she finally caved in. And asked. What the fuck. I was talking about.

And let me tell you neither of those things is EASY TO DEFINE

 

'cotton brain' makes a lot of sense to me. I also got 'spider web brain' (or rather 'feels like my head's full of spider webs') for a less severe version of that

 

Ooh i really like that too for the less severe version. It is just so... obvious to me what it means that I just never thought people wouldnt understand

 

The world is a weird uncaring place but autumn nights are cold and my cats are warm

 

One random ass fear i have is that my classmates ask me to play some music on our classroom audio system because... the venn diagram of my musical tastes includes groups such as 70s disco, Synthesizers, Dolly Parton Slowed Down, and Sad Guys With Guitars And Eyeliner

 

Like.... YouTube got me from CRJ to goddamn depeche mode's Policy of Truth and that does NOT make a cohesive playlist

 

Today i did a Drive and went to get groceries and outside of letting the car die twice (on uphill stoplights) i didnt do any stupid mistakes and i didnt panic and i wasnt involved in another car crash so thats GOOD and ENCOURAGING