The Witch Of Babbling (blog thread)

I mean I know I've told you this before but your mom can be a real shitlord :/

like honestly fuck right off

dude you got into /MED SCHOOL/ you're gonna kick ass and have amazing technicolor hair whilst doing it

 

frankly at least I would feel 300% more comfortable with a tattoo'd doctor who has unnaturally colored hair. Bc dumb flock brain goes "!!!!!!!!!! SAMESIES" and that means people with dyed hair are Trustworthy

 

Thank you guys :^>

My mom being here and my boyfriend getting two hp lovecraft books for xmas means that I'm in the living room a lot with a free ps4 while mom looks for apartments in MGA because he only reacts to things when he needs to comment on how bewilderingly virulently racist he was. So like. I've been playing FF9 again and this aaaalways makes me remember the rpg maker game I wanted to make back in 2006. High school was a nightmare but that was a real good year. I was remembering the changes to the setting I made in the years since and it was a lot! Wish I still had the docs or the time and inclination to make a document for the game, since i don't have ambitions to design my own maps in rpg maker OR do all the Spritework alone.

 

I always thought I didn't like making bread but what I don't like is the slimy texture of the dough before it gets worked enough and now that I just let my mixer work its magic i in fact love making bread.

 

The sneakers I got my husband arrived a few days ago and they arrived both the wrong color and number. I asked for an exchange and the confirmation hasn't arrived yet. I mentioned this to my mom and that the correct color and number is out of stock at the store I got it and I wasn't sure what to do because you can only do exchanges for store credit, so maybe I'd get the correct ones at another place and choose something else with store credit (because he currently has zero shoes that aren't falling apart except for his mid-calf camping boots, so it's not exactly too many shoes for him) and she gave me a goddamn lecture about how You're Done Buying Online Because It Always Goes Wrong, and the only thing missing was the motherfucking Young Lady to get her tone to max condescendigness, You Are Making Them Have The Shoes They Should Have Sent You as if I can make them get a product in stock out of their asses, and I'm just. So tired. So tired. I'm already so tired. She's gonna move to the same city as us and I'm already so tired. I was snappy at her and pointed out that I've bough shoes online a million times and it never went wrong and it's not my fault! And she made her Marie Is Being A Difficult Child face at me and uuuugggghhhhhhh

I get it!!! I am still financially dependent on you!!! I cant fucking pay my own bills and I won't for another six to ten fucking years!!! I AM NOT PLEASED ABOUT THAT EITHER!!!! STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM NOT TWENTY SEVEN

 

Anyway! I wish I knew more about more things. Like sociology/philosophy/feminist and queer theory, psych. This kind of stuff. Logic and other good academic things. I had a very rough high school education and I was too depressed to actually learn anything useful during my stint in advertising and now I just feel very... academically dumb. But I also don't know where to start

I wish I could take a lot of classes. I wish I could have the money for a lot of classes on everything that's interesting. Read a lot and understand things. A more solid education overall. I had a good education for Brazil but I sometimes feel miles behind everyone else

 

God your mom is kind of unbearable :/

Don't have a lot to say but witnessed, being financially dependent is rough :(

As for education stuff, you might try Crash Course? It's free and the videos aren't too long and I find them super engaging. A lot of top universities (like MIT) have free lectures available to view, but those are really fucking hard for me to sit through. Crash Course isn't, and is why I got a B+ in my college bio class even though I skipped the last 1/3 of the semester's lectures. They've got sciences, but also psych, philosophy, history, sociology...

 

Mom is a very nice and good person and I love her a lot But Sometimes Shes Kinda Difficult

Ooh, I hadn't heard about Crash Course! I took a look at coursera and there's some interesting stuff, but I'll definitely see what crash course has :3 thanks!!!

 

I woke up in a I Want To Glitter mood but its too hot to wear makeup /sad

The stuff i got from Colourpop during black friday arrived weeks ago and i havent touched it yet because who the fuck wears makeup when its 35°C out

 

that's what lush has their body glitter/highlighters for tbh. when you wanna sparkle but not make an effort.

 

Ooh i had never thought about body highlighters but it makes so much sense

I'm gonna go full twilight vampire

 

go forth

bedazzle yourself

 

In other news:today a 40kg capybara had to be escorted out of a shopping mall in the town I'm going to move to

 

Psst ask me about my ocs

 

I hope it's okay to ask you here! I still haven't logged back into tumblr... You can cross post maybe?

there are too many for me to look through right now, so I'll ask a few from the first section:

Illa: A-5, 6, 15, 18, 24
Nellas: A-4, 7, 9, 21, 22

(Also drop some into my blog about my children? <33)

 

Spoiler: Illa

Are they good at handling change in their life?
Oh boy!
Well, it depends. Being trained as a First, she needed to have some degree of adaptability; after all, her biggest duty in the clan is making sure people survive, and you can't make people survive if you're freaking out. So if the change involves a lot of people that aren't her, or if she can find something to do, she can be pretty dependable, but that was definitely an acquired skill and when the change is more personal she will suffer. She can be slippery and quick and smart about changes and the unexpected, but anything with soul in it is hard. The presumptive end of the world is just another list of tasks to go through before she can continue life as she has planned, but wanting to kiss a human in the mouth begets a meltdown.

Does your OC tend to assume their interpretation of events and reality is correct, or do they question it? I.e., “I’m sure that’s what you said” versus “It’s possible I misheard you.”
She's clever, has a good memory, and is stubborn as fuck, so she tends to err on the side of being sure of her interpretations. You'd think that it wouldn't go well with how much she overthinks, but it's just that she doesn't overthink about the facts, she just overthinks everything else. She's the kind of person who lies awake during a play-by-play of the thousands of possibilities for the future.

Is your character observant?
Yes. Girl isn't gonna have any epiphanies anytime soon, but she's learned at reading other people and situations, and watching.

Do they get jealous easily? Do they feel bad if they do?
Sort of? It's not much of the possessive kind of jealousy, though - it's more the... longing kind of jealousy? Romantically, it's not like she's pissed off that her partners are paying attention to other people as much as wishing they'd be paying attention to her, that sort of thing, and a kind of... competitiveness that comes from insecurity as she keeps comparing herself to others. Made for a terrible time all around in the aftermath of her breakup with Nira and very fun (sad) times in her horridly repressed courtship w Cullen. She feels rally bad about it because she views it as a sign of immaturity and another reason why she shouldn't be getting into relationships in the first place.

What are some of your OC’s biggest personal obstacles? This could be emotional, physical, social… Are they aware of it? Are they trying to overcome it?
Being a Dalish mage priestess is a big one; her tendency to self-centeredness and alienation of people is another, as is her overthinking and stubborness. She's plenty aware of her social position and trying very hard to play within it in a way that keeps her alive (and would help raise up her people once she's in the position to dos so) and tries very hard to minimize the damage the other two can do, but the last two? The collective noun of Keeper is an Argument, no one that raised her thinks it's a flaw.

Spoiler: Nells

Are they a pessimist or an optimist?
She's a pessimist. During day-to-day life in the clan you wouldn't notice, but she has a pretty grim outlook in life, and she latches to people or situations to give her hope/a more positive mindset, which is. Sadly why it's so easy for Solas to manipulate her.

Is your OC confident in their reactions to life in general, or do they get embarrassed or easily shamed for it? I.e., if something startles them, do they insist it WAS scary? When they cry, do they feel like they overreacted?
She is a lot more honest in her (three) emotions and attitudes than Idrilla can ever hope to be, and she doesn't feel any shame about it. Everything happens too much and it's not her fault.

Does your OC make a lot of excuses? For themselves? Others?

She doesn't take any bullshit except if you are her current object of adoration, in which case you can do no wrong and she will try to convince everyone that cares to listen, even if she has to punch them. She's also even more stubborn than Idrilla. It's messy.

Is your OC intended to be found generally attractive? Unattractive? Average? Is there a reason why?
She's average-to-pretty, but her resting bitch face is strong and most of the time she's scowling. The perpetually broken nose doesn't help.

I'll send you some! :3c

 

God I love your OCs. I love how Nellas throws away her usual rigor when something/someone finally starts catering to her emotional needs (whether it's her pessimism realism getting thrown out for something that gives her hope or her ability to hold people accountable dissolving in the face of love/obsession/adoration).

And poor Idrilla, twisted up in so many knots. Feelings are hard :(. and Feelings that feel at odds with Duty and Loyalty and Purpose are even harder :((. I'm so glad she and cullen do work things out in the end.

 

Cullen is the easiest thing to point to but poor Idrilla is just an unknown variable to herself, basically. Introspection is hard and being what people expect you to be is much easier, even if you have to bullshit it sometimes; managing feelings is hard but managing things is much easier, even if you have to stretch what little you have; deciding what's best for you is hard, but deciding what's best for others is much easier, even if it goes pear-shaped sometimes.

But. yeah. For all of Nell's tough posturing, she's a soft kid and her heart runs deep. She doesn't ignore her needs like Idrilla does but she has that same misplacement of them, like... Illa pretends they don't exist, and Nellas outsources. Their younger siblings are much better adjusted than those two, but they're. they're a mess.

 

And it's really sad how often Nell is taken for granted because of the way that she's blind to people's shortcomings if she's decided she likes them. Not just Illa - she takes the hardest fall from the pedestal but a lot of people just don't... respect her in that way.

 

Darling has absolutely /no/ idea what you're talking about, she's never had similar problems in her life xPP God someone needs to sit Idrilla down and just like. give her a back rub or something. Get her to chill out, just a little bit. On that thought, same with Nellas. Though for her, I mostly just want someone to do something nice for Nellas and take care of the Soft Girl (tm). No Solas not you! Someone who won't use Soft Girl Heart to manipulate her.