the world is cold but my bed is warm

well, that didn't work

 

been a while since ive had this dream

lets see if i can reconstruct it

it all is in a very circular limbo kind of thing. the queen rules absolute, and everyone who threatens her status quo of absolute obedience gets pulled into a "trial" where she lies to make you seem a really bad person and then you get launched into a glowing sphere which is kinda like a sun but also not.
you are not allowed to speak.
but on the journey there you collect other peoples stories. you listen, and they confess, while the queen goes through iteration and iteration of the world, which no one is allowed to remember. but they do, glimpses, and then the queens pawns come

during the trial you are abandoned, but those whose stories youve heard band together to wake more people by listening to their stories, while you go collect something in the glowing sphere that will help you break the queens rule and silence

its very thought police, but like. coalpunk/dieselpunk. id say steampunk but thats not the aesthetic, its later and not as victorian

 

at some point during the dream it was actually a video game and the trial was basically a fuckhuge cutscene and then the pc got launched into the sun (actually tied to a rope which was tied to itself with threads that were supposed to snap and with every snapping thread you got closer to the sun?? dont ask me for the physics on this i dont think they work) and i was like "wait, this game expects me to actually play it? preposterous!"

 

In the meantime the crop calculator spreadsheet has gained a few more mods to it. Had to expand the harvest calculator because of a mod that added yet another growing period.
Also because certain crop mods interfered with each other, I put them onto my first savefile.

I might be regretting my decision to not give Thelamuir the Secret Gardens Greenhouse -- with all the new continuous and trellis crops, I needed to take down my previous setup (from 8-9 down to 4 per crop)... And, of course, I had to take down a few trees. RIP Iridium quality fruit...

One of the mods on the Thelaruin savefile is causing framerate issues. I'd thought it'd be JSONAssets, but considering I don't have that issue on Thelamuir, it's not. I do hope it's not the custom machines I've got stored away in a chest (those cause framerate issues if you have too many running, but sometimes they also bug out in chests. Also items glitching out. That might've gotten fixed with the new JSONAssets? Need to try again...)
(Also, I actually have less machines running on Thelaruin than on Thelamuir, mostly because of a 2 year time difference, and because there isn't as much space to place a shed on the Whitewater farm the way I set it up. I might need to modify that map a little bit...
And the Quality Goods mod keeps not working, even with an automate bridge patch. ...On the other hand, I might need to test that on Thelamuir, because there might be interference with the CFAutomate patch...

 

Spoiler: parasitic body horror dream

was hanging out with two scientist people. water-flowing-out-of-rainwater-gutters-freezing cold winter. There are a couple gutters coming out next to each other for some reason, each with an ice bubble attached to the downpipe opening at the bottom, which in turn was attached to... something... that came out of the ground. One of the scientists, the professor, broke one of the ice bubbles. The assistant scolded him and said that these are where earthworms get their water in the winter. Note, she said earthworms, but the connotation was different, meaning a small, thin parasite that could control its host. The something attached to the ice bubble was, I think, it's nest? The professor got out a dremel and cut into one of the nests, and out came one of the worms. He flinched and ran, and what I realized was a finger (and later - *his* finger) landed on the ground, the worm wriggling around on it. The assistant rushed over to tape it down, and backed away quickly after that.

The professor's hand wasn't bleeding, as if the wound had already closed but not quite scarred yet, I thought that strange. Maybe he'd lost the finger shortly before and used it as a bait?

Also talk about how while the parasite doesn't wander and can be removed without killing the host, the parasite will make the host act in a way that prevents the removal.

 

125 crops, 26 trees. that's gonna be fun to draw.
and then make recipes.

and i will absolutely make all that in spreadsheet form first so i can let a script run across it so i dont have to type all the code myself over and over and over and over again.

 

i realized why i like girl cut shirts -- same reason i like wearing a binder, and leggings, and tight socks, like getting hugged, dislike bracelets, and burrito myself in blankets

i like the pressure. loose socks don't put pressure on me, neither do bracelets. why whenever i actually wore a wristwatch, i pulled it as tight as i could.

 

also i bought a loaf of full grain toast with sunflower and linseeds and it's so tasty?
like how dare. toast is not supposed to be that tasty.

 

Finally got the JSON Assets Witch Hat mod to work, and ported some other content patcher mods there.

 

please

 

steel/psychic
ur a computer

 

::OO

 

-points- Mirrors wins at pokemon

 

>>_>>"

curses, you have revealed my cunning disguse!

xxD

 

ghost flying........

 

ever since im on zoloft i remember my dreams more easily. nastrovya the platypus plushie doesnt help against dreaming of my parents anymore, sadly...

last dream of the night was set in a place where you could only be a mage if you got fused with a certain kind of dead fish, and the fusion only took if you were dead, too.
the fish was kept in a special place that only the academy head could access, but there was a guy who had an illicit store and fused people "prematurely" if they agreed to follow him.
there was a young woman ghost and her cat, she didnt know she was dead but the cat did. they both had a knife sticking through their head, inserted above the eyebrow and coming out under the chin, but only one knife was visible at any given time. the young woman worked against the guy with the illicit dead fish and removed the fish mid-fusion, leaving the not quite dead followers severely wounded.
ultimately, she decided to accept another followers deal of going back in time (that was his power), before they got killed and before the illicit fusions started, and prevent it all from happening.

 

But witnessed for parent dreams

 

thank

eta: 100% taking older stuff from attunementverse, calicoverse, my fantrolls, my fantransformers, my story of seasons & my stardew valley ocs....

 

also, some years ago i had a story idea about how there's so-called wish demons who offer humans wishes in exchange for something, relatively standard fare (urban fantasy setting tho -- present time berlin to be exact). the demons fought each other for territory, and of course the government tries to find and bind these fuckers.
back then i didn't really get that berlin is even more of a dissonant patchwork tumor of a city, and had a single powerful demon have it as its territory, but i suppose said demon could rule over some other big area. the important part that no one fucks with cloudwalker, because cloudwalker will destroy them. no one know who they really are, and they communicate to the mortal world via a line of proxies. cloudwalker also technically offers one wish per person for free (if you can find/contact them, of course. there technically is an office, but there's some shenaniganry going on. if you come to them with your wish, it's possible they just won't do it, the wish has to either interest them or you have to jump through a lot of hoops), all others cost

and some days back i figured out what cloudwalker feeds off of, primarily. of course there's the payment for all the later wishes, but mostly they feed off regret. the regret that you wasted your one wish on something insignificant that didn't make you happy. the nagging feeling of hollowness that you are rich as sin but it doesn't fulfill you.
(there might be a strong want necessary for cloudwalker to offer you a wish.)

 

mmmmMMMM apostasia/switchblade :P