Things that are currently annoying you

needing to make phone calls and realizing that, by sleeping late bc i felt sick, i slept through the window of being able to ask housemate to borrow their phone. i am.. so frustrated. i need to make an ssi appointment and get things rolling ASAP and im failing to even do this and idk if im annoyed at myself or the circumstances more but i am twitchy

 

Everything from my lower back to my knees hurt. :(

 

I fucking hate driving anywhere I’m not familiar with. Even with a GPS it sucks ass.

 

fanfiction.net is down :(

 

Fell down some stairs on Tuesday and I still hurt

 

Someone was annoyed with me for putting something in the wrong outgoing mail box and when I said that I didn't know the other box existed, got all huffy in their email and said "you've been told before!"

I apologised and told her that I'm sorry that I often forget things I'm told in passing if I am not given an opportunity to write them down. I have a terrible short-term memory sometimes. I thought we were done and I told her I would not forget again (which I won't, I have the email now if I get confused).

She stopped emailing me and came to my office to explain verbally. Seriously?

 

I got sauce, and possibly a grease stain, on my new work uniform. Again. Before my shift starts. FML.

 

I can’t tell if I’m bad at my job and Supervisor A is the only one willing to call me on it, or if I’m fucking gaslighting myself due to anxiety and his standards are actually way too high

Either way I wish he would stop fucking micromanaging me

 

being awake.

 

Spoiler: :frustrated sounds at self and world:

I DMed last night and got our new game rolling. For a week, we had discussed the times and I had been told "evening was best for everyone". We are playing with a LOT of timezones: someone in Cali, someone in Utah, someone in Missouri, myself in Ohio, someone in the Netherlands and someone in Australia.. so there is a lot of juggling. I suggested a time, and everyone had rolled with it and seemed content. We did not have a cutoff time because everything had taken so long to get started it had just spilled onward till we could feasibly get the newest character introduced, who had a late start.

Today, two members who had KOed on us, the people who were at the tail end w/ the "earlier" times (the rest of us are gremlins with no sense of time, so.) said they needed earlier times and we found a website and fiddled around and found things that probably will work that are in the early afternoon for half the players instead.

My brain: why did you say evening if you wanted early afternoon, the only reason i made it so late was because 1. it would make it evening where you were and 2. everyone had said it would work alright when I asked/nobody suggested any times whatsoever or any adjustments when I was asking before. and 3. we had like a 40 minute delay because I fucked up and had to spent 15+ minutes on the first post bc my brain blipped that part then another delay because the person who had rolled for the first awakening wasn't... actually even home at the time and failed to mention it whatsoever till they were finally home. 8I;

so now I'm happy we're gonna have a time everyone is satisfied with, but I'm anxious everyone thinks I'm an idiot/rude/etc. for picking a late time before and not being a good planner, and also annoyed because like. Nobody said anything. Not a word. The two who left didn't tell me they were going to bed, they just disappeared. No warnings about "hey I'm tired". No "hey that might be late for me". No "Hey, when are we ending" from literally ANYONE though that was brought up as well.

I'm not a great DM by any means as I'm inexperienced save for the larpish things I storytold for when I was younger that'd run for hours. I'm a good one, I think, but not a Great one as that comes with experience. I'm kicking myself for not having these things sorted out beforehand, they're so simple, but even the things I thought worked out fine just... didn't for everyone and I feel like I failed them even if they're okay with how things rolled RE: now we can all start on the same point at least. There's no harm no foul, they were apologetic even for KOing and stuff but I'm Frustrated and Anxious and gjfdkl *ahhhhhhhhh*. Up side tho, at least everyone said they had a Lot of Fun and with the new schedule we can all have the same amount of fun for the same amount of time. This was just the first round. Shit should be good going forward. But fkdlfjldkgjfdlgdk.

 

I just got reminded of that Brownie/Cub Scout song about squishing up the baby bumblebee and now I'm upset.

 

That dawning realization as you approach the last posted chapter that a longfic you’ve become very invested in is not finished and has actually been abandoned for three years

ffnet why do you not clearly mark things complete or incomplete I’m Cry

 

not being able to focus on one thing long enough to even waste time entertainingly

 

oh boy do i feel that shit

 

Mendeley is becoming increasingly impossible to use. Might have to pay nearly 100 bucks for a more robust program (and that's with a discount through my institution)

 

I HAVE ANOTHER FREAKING COLD. I JUST GOT OVER THE LAST ONE LIKE A WEEK AGO

 

I am so fucking done with BLAST at this point. I don't understand why their fucking database system is the way it is. I have old databases, I know that they're BLAST nucleotide databases, but I need the name of the database to run this command, and apparently the name of the index file is NOT the name of the database! And as far as I can tell there is no way to actually find the name of the database because why would they let you easily see that.

I'd use DIAMOND or something but it doesn't have as much info as BLAST output! Great!

Also the rep said I'd be getting 12 free preps but I only got half of that and it's just. I'm very frustrated right now. They weren't even the right type of kit, they were biofilm kits instead.

can i not just have something go right

 

The boys and i went hiking again a couple days ago and we kept having to stop for bf2 to catch up. Bf1 and i are going out to another trail next tuesday, and hopefully every upcoming tuesday. Part of me hopes bf2 will stop inviting himself along so we can go farther and faster. Another part of me wants this to become part of an exercise regime for him.

 

The cold is making my knees hurt, I’m pretty sure I’m too young for this. :(