it mightn't change that actual dynamic necessarily but... maybe people just have a different framework in mind when they see a character hurting another version of themselves like, when characters hurt people who are clearly Not Them At All, they're like, "this is a character hurting another character and generally being a jerk" whereas when they seem someone hurting another version of themselves, they're like, "this reflects how they feel about themselves and is a look into their tortured psyche" and maybe they just assume that all the versions of the character understand why the other versions are doing what they're doing and/or that it is something like a literal reflection of expressions like, "i'm kicking myself for this" like karkat hating on his past and future selves it becomes an entirely different thing to conceptualize, a more metaphorical thing
Hm, kind of an interesting character study like this - red vs blue except, dammit, I can't say anything about how it relates for fear of spoilers But it does get at the point of "when does this stop being myself and start being another person?"
Jadesprite pretty obviously didn't understand the way Karkat did. Jade might have felt "I'm kicking myself for this," but Jadesprite felt "I was just ripped away from all my friends and now an alternate me keeps hurting me and making it worse, why is this happening I am so sad."
The fact that my brain can't be forced into doing tasks until we're right on top of the deadline and I am bone tired. (Seriously, I wrote my entire master's thesis, 30 pages, in the five days before the deadline. That really endeared me to my advisor. Not.)
I just found out that it's not normal to be in pain while writing, and I have been holding pencils horribly wrong for all of my life. And I think this contributed to my failing school, too, because they didn't like that I wasn't taking notes. I wasn't taking notes because it hurt, and I never mentioned this because I thought I was just a loser with a low pain tolerance. I'm such a fucking idiot.
@Bel Capricorn Not an idiot, that's not even a thing I thought existed, "holding a pencil wrong." I thought the right way to hold a pencil is any way where you can get words to come out of your utensil? Also, it's not just "holding a pencil wrong" that can cause hand pain while writing, it can be other neural damage, repetitive motion injury, or anything else. You're not stupid, you just had an "aha" moment as to what could be a cause. And now this shows that you're not a loser with a low pain tolerance, you've actually been putting up with a lot of shit and you realized you didn't have to feel this way anymore. As a matter of curiosity (feel free not to share), are you right-handed or left-handed? If you're left-handed I can probably give you some tips from my mom.
@pixels I'm right-handed while writing. And now my wrist hurts again, but I think this time it's out of spite because it doesn't like me.
Mom, I know cleaning out Grampa's stuff is hard, but you can not use my house as an extension of your hoard. 8| I don't need or want a dozen jigsaw puzzles, or Deluxe Monopoly.
I can't tell if I'm some kind of colorblind or if my computer is fucked up, but all this yellow looks exactly like pink and it's making my eyes hurt. And I can remember mistaking colors before, but I can't remember if they were on this computer or in meatspace, and that is not helping the headache.
This is just gratuitous whining, nobody was doing anything wrong, I'm just grumpy today. But ugh, I hate it when people talk loudly on the bus next to me. :E No, stop making mouthnoises, you are sucking my spoons, I am trying to read my book and listen to music.
neck and shoulder hurt for some unidentifiable reason and its keeping me from concentrating on reading 50 pages, i cant bend down to read and underline things if they hurt...
Ahahahahaaaaaaaaaa I was called for jury duty. I was able to get a postponement b/c I am a student but that's only for a month and I don't what the jury duty process is except I know that I will be crying in public in front of people who will be judging me and I do not want that
I have a horribly incompetent lawyer on the other side of a case (yeah, seebs--worse than Meatwad). Everything she generates has some glaring error in it. I feel kind of shitty having to bill my own clients for work to fix her fuck ups.
Spoiler: i get sad about tagging squicks and triggers i don't think this is exactly annoyance but i told someone that i can't tag squicks and triggers ('cause if i start tagging those, i'll constantly be worrying about fucking my tagging up [missing one or the opposite of that, being too overprotective] and getting someone mad at me, as well as people's expectations of me) and they unfollowed me. which makes sense. and yeah now i'm kinda sad. like, actually crying. and like, if tumblr wasn't such a vicious place towards people who don't fit their standards, i reckon i could tag squicks and triggers pretty easily - or at least without worry. as it is, it feels like tagging this stuff and basically leaving myself open and vulnerable to other people just isn't a risk i can take. better to just give off an outward impression of Don't Give a Fuck (like, still being really nice to the person who asked but using the private function, and not letting anyone else on tumblr know the thing even happened) than to concede any requests. the funny thing is, the person was i talking to was pretty nice. they weren't someone i'd have to worry about. but granting their request would open me to many other, perhaps not so nice people and just... no. i'm not gonna do that. maybe, considering how sad i am, this belongs in the hugbox. yet i can't imagine putting it there, 'cause it feels like i might just be expressing my privilege, my lack of squicks and triggers for people to tag, and my inability to deal with other people's.
Yes, mom, I get that I haven't been following your bullshit rules and therefore must beg you for internet. Even to talk to my friends, who I can't talk to over the phone for various reasons. Even though I came home instead of going to the library so that you wouldn't have to make dinner. It's nice to know that being able to keep my sanity by talking to my friends is a privilege. Imagine if I actually needed that, how crazy would that be? also my space bar is sticking and it's pissing me the fuck off
How amazon is expecting me to type the symbols in an image that´vs broken. Dear amazon, I want my bloody music, kindly go fuck yourself
