i'm not enjoying the things that i normally enjoy, and i keep wanting to sabotage it all so people will tell me to go away, and then i'll realize what i had and regret it and start building things again (burning bridges is too obviously catastrophic, but there's so many other ways to Ruin It All)
@swirlingflight *hugs* i really hope you feel better soon, since feeling that way sounds really unpleasant. and if there's anything i can do to help, let me know.
TFW all the instances of a really simple concept go "poof" out of your head just when you want to find them.
I dont really want a career, there is no job in the world that i can think of as 'yes that, perfect' because i'm a lazy piece of shit and i dont want to have to work like 8 hours a day i almost wish i struggled with depression or anxiety a bit /more/ so i could actually feel like going to therapy would be worth it
on an mturk survey: "gender: () male () female () transgender" i appreciate the consideration, survey-creator, but i'd much rather your survey not imply that a trans person cannot be classified as male or female. you'd think an ivy league psychology professor would have known better.
I'm reminded of that time the Republican party put up an online survey on what the Kids These Days are interested in, and the options for "sexuality" included "in the closet."
I agreed to talk to my aunt's very small high school science class about what I do tomorrow morning for an hour. She JUST TOLD ME that she invited like four other classes. I thought I was signing up to talk to eight students and there are going to be more than fifty, several other teachers, and assorted administrators who might drop in or might not. And my time slot is three hours, not one. So here I am, screaming, attempting to bludgeon my talk into some sort of shape, and hoping to GOD the students ask questions because I sure as hell don't have 3 hours of material.
My free time and spoons are in extremely short supply right now, don't give me attitude when I politely decline your request for me to give you them. Getting real tired of setting boundaries and having people treat them like challenges.