Things that are currently annoying you

LARP Stands for live action role play sorry had to deal with getting a shower and now I am waiting on getting my tire changed.

 

It would be cool but very hard to larp online unless you have a mic with an app to talk even then still hard.

 

At least I meant more like a LARPer chill thread like "Look at my new costume, look at my new weapons, look at the swaggy bread I baked to go to con next week" crafting tips and stuff like that :P

 

LARP thread started.

 

where?

 

ugggggggggh. that's friggin awful.
every time I see art like that my skin crawls, but in creepy tumblr person that means "EEWW TRANSPHOBE"

 

talking to people feels like balancing on a tightrope and messing up feels like i just slipped in the middle of a stunt in front of hundreds of people. why this. why can't i just talk to people and be normal and everything's normal and i don't do anything weird or dumb and then feel like an idiot.

 

There's a conversation that happened MONTHS ago that keeps needling me in hindsight because it keeps bothering me afresh in new ways thought it was just weird in the time

I was telling a close friend about how I went on a long journey of personal reconciliation and forgiveness in which I decided to purposefully humanize and try to understand sexual abusers and rapists, because after my abuse, I really hated them and considered them monsters. I don't blame myself for that, but I didn't like being that way. I didn't like the person I was when I was angry all the time and I decided to try to change. It hurt to do it but I knew purposefully reminding myself that these people, despite their actions, were also people who could even have their reasons for acting the way they did restored me to a better headspace and sent me, mentally, down a path I liked more. It's not something I would force any other woman to do, certainly not, but it's helped me. I said something like 'it was comfortable to hate rapists and sexual abusers and men in general, but I didn't like who I was when I was hateful and bitter, you know?'

And she said 'why not? do the whole misandrist man-hater thing, it's hot.'

I am constantly bothered by this in new ways. At the time I was like, 'uh, sure, not what I was going for, ok, change of subject' but now I'm just..... hot?? hot???? I'm talking about a personal journey of reconciliation and forgiveness and examining and altering my own moral scope and you're judging how hot I'm being??? How much would you forgive exactly because it was 'hot???' is it superior to moral value in your worldview or what is going on??? I'm trying to be the person I want to be but whatever, no need for a personal journey?? Does something being blue or red also negate its inherent goodness or badness to you or what world am I living in that's SO ARBITRARY THAT WASN'T EVEN WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT!! I WAS NOT TALKING ABOUT THE ATTRACTIVENESS OF THE THING

Besides that, what the hell, dude, dismissing a confession like that with 'idk you could have not done that. might have been cool if you just hadn't have'

Probably something completely different was happening in her brain and maybe she was going through her own journey of legitimize her feelings of bitterness or anger but this just keeps coming back to me and freaking me out anew. 'hot.' ok. I don't think anyone should be shamed for their anger, especially anger coming from legitimate pain and betrayal, but I went through a long path to be closer to being the person I want to be and... ok then ouo

rant over god I needed to get that out

 

Video LARP is a thing. I have a pdf somewhere that lays out a handful of different situations that can be played that way.

 

Cool!

 

Airport delays

 

i've fallen into yet another small fandom, and the comic has so much potential for angsty fic. i've found a grand total of i think... six fics? and five of those are crossovers that take the characters out and transplant new ones in the universe. the last fic completely eliminates the aspect i want played with to make an au. bluh. i'd write my own but i can't write for beans and have no idea what i want other than "in canon, this character is extremely op but the downside is he can't feel strong emotions (mostly fear and self preservation, but it might be affecting overall drive and future goals as well?). his power forcibly calms him. explore that."

 

I'm trying to find some good shower-cleaning instructions, but every goddamn site with cleaning info seems to recommend you clean EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD by mixing baking soda and vinegar and my not-so-inner chemist is screaming. Congratulations, you have managed to turn two potentially-useful cleaning materials into an inert salt!

 

But they fizz up so nicely they MUST be doing something useful! See, if it makes foamy fizzies, then it's cleaning. Yup!

 

Yeah, I can't help but think of the "hydrogen peroxide for everything" crowd. Wow, look at all the fizzing, this is so cool, it must be doing a great job of [whatever it was I wanted it to do]!

(Seriously, PSA: do not pour hydrogen peroxide solution on injuries if you've got any other kind of disinfectant available. It kills skin cells, which slows healing and increases scarring. Yes, even though it bubbles excitingly.)

 

writing undertale fic, aka I need puns here but I can't think of any. it probably should be several lines of puns that all work off each other, not just one. my brain suddenly rejects all attempts at wordplay

 

Crowdsource puns! I promise I'd be happy to help think of some.




And my annoyance: lower intestines, why this. :|

 

The fact that I am sweating my ass off because I am ill and running a fever when I don't take paracetamol :(

 

Someone got into my Playstation Network account and used it to buy some games, whee.

 

Do you at least now own the games?