things that are currently making you anxious

Have a Very Important exam on Tuesday, and am freaking the fuck out trying to study

 

I'm sure you'll do great! Though that doesn't stop the anxious feeling right now, I know.

 

More paranoia than anxiety but: people who can sleep with their back facing a door without some (imagined or real) secondary protection amaze and astound me

 

This is very most likely me being full of myself, but my friend group has yet another couple and it's just me and another guy left. Because they're all a bunch of shipping nerds I'm really afraid they will start playing pair the spares with us and I'm not interested in the least in dating anyone, let alone him. I like him as a friend but he's like 8 years younger than me and we have very little in common aside from both of us being autistic

 

I just sassed my sister while she was in a mood on accident and now I'm afraid she's going to ignore me for days on end cause she's always right and I can't handle the pressure. I'm at least 85% sure she won't but I hate being alone/having to tip toe around things. She gets so frustrated :(

 

being alive
seriously
I guess I'm 28 now and I keep thinking to myself 'damn im old and decrepit and i've experienced everything i need to and i haven't been successful at a rate that I should be for my age god I'm still in school and switched 2 programs' and - for me, it makes me feel like I've 'ruined' this shot at life and should start over except I can't, right you only get one shot but then it makes me feel wow it can only get worse from here because I've already ruined it and it can only get more ruined

and this anxious thought preoccupies me so much of my time and circulates and percolates

ahhh

 

Why is my immediate reaction when someone doesn't reply to me that they must be dead, and that i need to go over and find out what happened and make sure their pets are looked after and tell everyone they knew and so on and so forth...

it is far more likely their phone has lost charge but try telling the anxious part of my brain that

 

Agreetnessed

 

Aromatherapy helps me stay emotionally under control, but the pet species I want can't process the phenols found in plant oils and it can cause liver failure for them. I'm pretty sure they'd be okay as long as I kept it to my wash-off shower products and a little bit applied topically before bed in a room they don't go in, diffusers and scented candles are the big problem and I don't use those, but a lot of pet-care boards are all like "if you use any fragranced products within a three block radius your pet will die" and it's hard not to worry.

 

The Ukraine/Russia situation, what else?

Spoiler: tw suicide

I really, really badly want to get a method to commit suicide. Not for use NOW, but just to have in case nuclear war breaks out. I assumed it wouldn't happen but Putin is clearly deranged, mutually assured destruction isn't a deterrent if one side is determined to either get what he wants or burn it all down. He's never had any concern for the Russian people's well-being and he's not getting any younger. It could happen.

I don't know where to look or who to ask to get such a method, and it stresses me out knowing that there's no point in me asking because they'll just commit me or tell me to call the hotline and like. fuck you. fuck you! I'm not going to try to survive a post-nuclear-war world. It's just not happening! You can't fucking force me! I'm going to be constantly panicking every minute I DON'T have a way out in case it happens, so weirdly enough I really need it for my mental health. great