if i'd had a gun today i'd have shot myself i feel like an inanimate object if inanimate objects felt shame and screamed at people for being friendly and making simple requests getting better requires doing things. being alive requires doing things. i don't want to do things. i want a fucking off button.
so so jealous of people who can feel love and affection for their pets instead of irritation, guilt, and failed obligation.
i don't have much to add because i'm pretty much in the same place but witnessed and sad solidarity fistbump, we can make it through this
