Vent Walk-in freezer (general-purpose vent thread)

Discussion in 'Brainbent' started by seebs, Jun 1, 2016.

  1. Emma

    Emma Your resident resident

    I had a really complicated discussion this afternoon, about a really complicated patient. And it did not go the way I expected, and it was a really crappy discussion.
     
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  2. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I haven't slept at all and I need to be up in two hours >_<
     
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  3. The Meek

    The Meek Very Quiet

    With the pandemic going on, time seems to be really flying by even quicker than usual this year. I'm not much of an outdoorsman, but I like taking strolls around the neighborhood, visiting parks, going on hiking trails...things to do a few times a week to kill time. Being sequestered inside's made even someone who likes keeping to themselves like me feel trapped.
     
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  4. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I've found more reason to tell myself I would suck at the YouTube horror-reading channel idea I've been planning to do; the in thing at the moment is animated stories, and I can't animate, so I fear I'll be lost in the crowd :(
     
  5. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I'm finally doing the writing I wanted to do and still getting down on myself because the first draft sucks, even though I know the purpose of a first draft is to suck. I guess once I've done it this way more than once I'll feel that way less. With short fanfics I write them sentence by sentence working through them in my head, which doesn't work with longer pieces, and the adjustment's taking time and is a bit frustrating..
     
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  6. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    My kitchen has mice in it and I'm living on a planned overdraft with no idea how I'll ever catch back up :(
     
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  7. Camber

    Camber Active Member

    ah. I really wish I could find a career that looks like something I could do and not have a breakdown. The stuff I have experience with and know I find fulfillment doing is all talking-to-people related and I don't have the confidence for it yet - man, I'm 22 and very awkward and haven't learned how to manage my brain stuff enough, I don't think I can teach or be responsible for people's wellbeing, and I definitely can't do full time work in care, and museum education work is very very competitive. argh. this will look a lot nicer in the morning
     
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  8. Camber

    Camber Active Member

    ow ow ow pushed myself to cut down on distractions today so I can figure out how to function without them (good) but I haven't figured it out yet so I got anxious this morning and haven't really gotten more than a foot from self-recrimination since then (ow ow ow).
     
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  9. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Trying to introduce portion control. I know I'm not hungry-hungry, but the urge to go forcefeed myself until it hurts is real :(
     
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  10. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I really really miss my ex, but we sorta ran out of things to talk about :(
     
  11. witchknights

    witchknights 27 Bold Enchanter Defends The Fearful

    am i in a state of mind where i want to kill myself for the most absolutely idiotic dumbshit reasons? yes, yes i am.

    and i cant even substitute mental stability with shopping for clothes or food because we are kind of broke lmao
     
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  12. Fucker

    Fucker Well-Known Member

    Reading my old abuse threads on here always makes me feel a bit weird. I’ve been here since i was 15 and despite being bitter and miserable, this is objectively the “best” and safest time of my life, where I am not actively being abused and I’m generally left alone (despite being broke and isolated) I will be moving to the russian border in a few months for school, and during that semester i will have to gain more financial independence (which I’m trying to do through finishing my novel and selling art+looking for jobs) i guess i read the old thread to remind myself of how “urgent” it is to have a safe place to move back to and not go back to my parents, but it still weirds me out. I’m very optimistic about next year, even if a little scared.

    After the 1 year buffer of school, life is just out there for me and i might finally be free, genuinely free to pursue what i want here. What a fucking wild thought
     
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  13. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    So, turns out I'm prediabetic. With my weight and overeating problem it's not unexpected, and I know all the things I have to do to keep it controlled, which I should have been doing anyway, but it sucks that I have it and it's my fault :(
     
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  14. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I suspect the reason I hate myself so much is because I treat myself like shit more than the other way around. I need to make sure I remember that.
     
  15. Emma

    Emma Your resident resident

    Bones is making me feel nostalgic for something I have never had and probably never will...
     
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  16. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    Tofu turned out to be vaguely edible to me, and now I'm getting down on myself for not being vegetarian since I technically could be even if I'd hate it.
     
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  17. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    I wanted to try my perfume-making again as a hobby even if I can't do it as a business, but I had to throw out my supplies because they were old and leaking and the cost of materials on my favourite store site has roughly doubled since I last used it :(
     
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  18. Hawkeguy

    Hawkeguy struggling to complete this thought

    i have positively nothing to look forward to and tbh it's pissing me off how readily my brain accepted the stagnation and went "ok, back to the basket of horrible coping-with-boredom habits you wouldn't even write about on here"
     
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  19. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    IIIII... dunno if this is a thing, but it occurred to me that my POCD as a teen might have stemmed from how non-sexually badly I treated my sister. I was emotionally abusive to her for years, and I wonder if the POCD was a way of my subconscious making me back off, but warning me about the wrong thing? I dunno, probably I'm being too Freudian. I do wish I could make up for how shitty I was to her though. Many of the people around me were shitty to me but that's no excuse.
     
  20. ChelG

    ChelG Well-Known Member

    MY HAND JUST SLIPPED AND MY FINGER HIT THE DOORFRAME HARD ENOUGH TO SPLIT ALL THE WAY UP THE SIDE OF MY FINGERNAIL OW OW OW OW OW
     
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