So my brain does some things, which I think are maybe weird, but I don’t know what kind of weird. Apologies for the disorganized ramble – this is mostly just brain-vomit and stream-of-consciousness. One of these things I can best describe by comparing it to the Sims 3. Sims have a queue of tasks in the upper right of the screen, showing the task they’re working on, and, in order, the things they will do once it’s complete. Basically I feel like my brain doesn’t have this queue, or it’s very difficult to have more than one thing in it at a time. Like, if I’m reading a book and mom asks me to do laundry, I can’t say “just let me finish this chapter,” because in the time it takes to do that, I will most likely forget about the laundry completely. I don’t think I have ADHD, because Seebs mentioned something about studying just not working, but that’s definitely not the case for me. I swear by flash cards. I am the ruler of cramming for tests, acing them, then forgetting everything I learned as soon as the semester is over. I’m actually quite the perfectionist when it comes to school – the thought of turning homework in late, or half-assed, is confusing at best and really distressing at worst. So I’m a perfectionist with schoolwork, I hardly ever miss deadlines, and yet I’m still a procrastinator. Oh, I will be a sleep-deprived, burned-out wreck, but the assignment will be done well and on time. So I’m not incapable of doing things, just apparently incapable of doing them sooner and not being so rough on my own health. :/ I’ve joked about having faulty autopilot software before – I have a tendency to run my shoulders into corners or choke on water more frequently than seems reasonable. It’s not that I can’t navigate or drink if I’m paying attention, but I was kind of under the impression that those things don’t typically require much conscious attention? And really, who would want to be paying attention to that when they could be plotting fanfic in their head. I’m also kind of bad at noticing things. My family will not let me live down the time we drove right past a fire truck parked in front of a neighbor’s house with its lights on, and I completely failed to register it was there, because I was too involved in talking about something that had happened earlier that day. (I was in the passenger seat, thank goodness. It’s things like this that make me nervous about learning to drive, though.) It’s like my brain is really good at holding onto random scraps of information, and really bad at noticing cues or the remembering-to-do-things part of memory. Like if I’m taking a multiple choice test, and one of the choices is exact wording from our readings, I will almost always recognize that and get the question right. Sometimes I can even recall precise wording off the top of my head days later. (Is that normal? It feels normal to me, because it’s usually just a couple words and it’s really hit-and-miss whether I’ll remember or not, it's not very impressive, but then sometimes my classmates stare at me when I do it, so IDK.) I’ve got a brain full of trivia, and I’ve had my library card number memorized since I was twelve or younger. If some feature of the environment actually succeeds in catching my eye long enough that I think about it, I’ll remember it quite well (strangely-worded signs are a frequent example). But it’s really hard to predict what I’ll notice and what I won’t. (Apparently there’s been a three-foot-long wooden fish in the neighbor’s tree for months now? Why did I not notice it before? And also just, why?????) “Take out the trash every other Tuesday” has never really sunken in, and I know mom’s frustrated about always having to either remind me several times or do it herself, but I don’t know how to make it better because I swear I’m not deliberately ignoring her. Okay, I think I’m done upending my brain and shaking out the bits that rattle for the time being. Just kind of wanted to get that all down, in case maybe someone else can relate, or has a guess about what might be going on? Thanks for taking the time to read!