Hello. Morven isn't my official name but it's the one I've used online since 1991; I prefer a persistent identity, and this name is tied to my real life one in multiple places (i.e. don't be worried about "outing" me). I'm 42, born in 1973. I was born in London, UK and lived in the country until 1997; I lived in California until 2012, and in Seattle, WA since then. Mental differences weren't really diagnosed in 1970s/80s England, but the psychiatrist I was seeing for depression and anxiety in the 2000s gave an in-passing, off-the-cuff diagnosis of Asperger's / autism-spectrum, and I think that's quite likely to be the case. He said he didn't see the need for a formal diagnosis since I'd obviously learned to deal with the world reasonably well on my own, which is true. It just helps explain a lot of my weirdnesses, and why I seem to get along best with people somewhere on the spectrum, or otherwise non-neurotypical. Gender is one of those complicated things with me. I was assigned male at birth and have never really had the courage to ever look otherwise, but I've never been happy with it. The reason for not taking any steps toward any kind of gender-ambiguous or feminine appearance comes down to my anxiety and social paranoia, really. I already feel uncomfortably under scrutiny, and am horribly afraid of social embarassment; I can't even deal with it second-hand in movies and TV shows. And the thing is, also; for a long time I didn't really realize there were options other than "stay male" or "be so unhappy and unable to live as a male that I'd be OK with the trauma of transitioning", especially since I am not physically very androgynous looking and there's no way I'd ever be stereotypically feminine, and in the 1980s/early 1990s it seemed that you couldn't be accepted as transsexual unless you were. At least from the info I was picking up. So I never did anything really about it. I never found it impossible to live as my gender assignment, just unsatisfying. So I think I'm somewhere tending toward female "on the inside", but it sort of swings between feeling somewhat neutral about it and dysphoria. So IDK what that really counts as. It's notable that whenever I create an online identity, I feel very uncomfortable identifying as male, though, and in video games I never feel at all right playing a male character. I tend to use feminine to neutral avatars. I'm a stereotypically aspie transportation geek, obsessed with trains primarily. I'm a computers nerd, but doing it for a living (I'm a UNIX sysadmin) has kind of burned me a bit in the fandom of it. Doing what you love for a career can sometimes kill your love. I'm an obsessive speculative fiction reader; I especially love the works of C.J. Cherryh and P.C. Hodgell, but lots more. I try to write but am a bit too undedicated at it. Trying to fix that. I love Warhammer 40K more for the lore than the game. My video-game obsessions are World of Warcrack and War Thunder Ground Forces. Oops, that's a novel. What would be called a dash-buster on Tumblr. Sorry!