I can’t tell you how it will be for you, but in my experience it’s counterintuitively easier. Hearing about something like that second hand, I’m helpless. Hearing about trauma firsthand, I am not. I can help. It’s like any other injury. When the person is right there and they’re hurting, that’s the priority. Freaking out about it takes a back seat until that’s dealt with. It’s almost even calming in a way. I have to be calm, so I am. You’re good at this, and you’ve got training. It probably won’t cover every eventuality, but I think the basics of emotional labor are fairly consistent even in the face of... that. There’s absolutely no shame if this is too much because my God, and I say that as a religious person who takes invocations of God very seriously, that is terrible. I think you can do this. I really believe in you. But if you decide you can’t or it’s just not worth it, that would be totally understandable.